end of the road.
Have you ever had the good fortune of reading a good series of novels?
Do you remember what it felt like, reading the last book of that series?
I don't deal well with endings. The usual open ended endings... even a 'happily ever after' don't cut it for me. I want to know what happens next. I NEED to know. I want it to continue. Maybe thats why I was so in love with Days of Our Lives. I hear that even now it's still playing. Which generation is it now, I wonder.
You're wondering what brought about this entry.
Once again, I am now faced with an ending. The end to one phase and the beginning of another. Except this new beginning... it's not at all clear. At best, it's murky and ugly. How do you get used to the idea of change?
The mess in my head is starting to show in my writing. It's disorganized and ugly and sometimes, totally incomprehensible.
I'm heading straight for a mental breakdown. No one gets it. No one understands. When one has their dreams broken, how do you continue with the monotony and drone of life?
This time... it's not going to just go away. It's not something I can will away by ignoring it. This time, I can't fix it with a holiday. This time, it might actually kill me.
Do you remember what it felt like, reading the last book of that series?
I don't deal well with endings. The usual open ended endings... even a 'happily ever after' don't cut it for me. I want to know what happens next. I NEED to know. I want it to continue. Maybe thats why I was so in love with Days of Our Lives. I hear that even now it's still playing. Which generation is it now, I wonder.
You're wondering what brought about this entry.
Once again, I am now faced with an ending. The end to one phase and the beginning of another. Except this new beginning... it's not at all clear. At best, it's murky and ugly. How do you get used to the idea of change?
The mess in my head is starting to show in my writing. It's disorganized and ugly and sometimes, totally incomprehensible.
I'm heading straight for a mental breakdown. No one gets it. No one understands. When one has their dreams broken, how do you continue with the monotony and drone of life?
This time... it's not going to just go away. It's not something I can will away by ignoring it. This time, I can't fix it with a holiday. This time, it might actually kill me.