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Sometimes I hate how much I love you...
So Im sitting here, on a plane to NYC, its 7:48 in the morning and I hate it already. I want to go home, or at least have him with me..but he has things to do. I was looking up pictures of him to make new icons and saw some new ones..And...when I saw them, I busted into tears, not only because he looked absolutly breathtaking, but because she was there again, and she had to be there with him, while I wasnt. Mum tells me "Kelly, its going to be ok, he loves you and not her, they are just friends." and I know thats true, but I cant stand the way she looks at him, I cant stand the way they look at each other, I cant stand the way she wraps her arms around her waist, I cant stand anything. Why am I stressing so much about this? I am so fucking frustrated right now, I want to rip my hair out and scream. I dont know why I complain..He puts up with Bert and I when we hold hands and whatever for the press. *Sighs* im being selfish, arent I?
I cant help it. I love him..ha to think around a few months back, or maybe last year, dont remember..I was like "The day I date an nsyncer is the day Jack dates Christina Aguilera" oops. I should have bitten my tongue. I never thought I would go out with him, ever. Then again..I never thought id like Nick, and look where that went. Ah kelly falls for the most impossible people, except Joshua. It was funny when I thought I had to break it off with him because people thought we werent good for each other or people thought he was too old. But hes perfect for me, hes an adult and he treats me like one. A part of me knows im still a kid, cause I fucking act like one. But sometimes I like to show the woman in me. He makes me feel like a woman and I love that. I guess from now on, im going to have to try and swallow my pride, and let him attend these things with her. They are...friends.
NYC here I come, again. Im staying at my apartment, I love NYC, I hate LA. The only reason I like it is because of my Family, Mandy, Josh, Britney, Wade and Michelle when she visits. I want to move to NYC, but mum wants to stay in LA, because we just bought the damn house. It is nice but eh..LA is so sickning already, I want to hurl. So yes..Its going to NYC today and tomorrow, then fly to europe for the MTV Europe Awards (Which I will see Nick & Christina in). Then im going home for a little rest, then its back to NYC, then back to europe, then back to NYC and finally home. I am going to be working so hard..My record comes out in 2 weeks, my first concert ever on the same day and the new season premieres, bloody fucking hell. Joshua is trying to go to my record release party. I really hope he gets to go.
If you guys are not Busy The 26th Of Nov I invite you to my record release party & Concert. Thank you.
That is all.
So Im sitting here, on a plane to NYC, its 7:48 in the morning and I hate it already. I want to go home, or at least have him with me..but he has things to do. I was looking up pictures of him to make new icons and saw some new ones..And...when I saw them, I busted into tears, not only because he looked absolutly breathtaking, but because she was there again, and she had to be there with him, while I wasnt. Mum tells me "Kelly, its going to be ok, he loves you and not her, they are just friends." and I know thats true, but I cant stand the way she looks at him, I cant stand the way they look at each other, I cant stand the way she wraps her arms around her waist, I cant stand anything. Why am I stressing so much about this? I am so fucking frustrated right now, I want to rip my hair out and scream. I dont know why I complain..He puts up with Bert and I when we hold hands and whatever for the press. *Sighs* im being selfish, arent I?
I cant help it. I love him..ha to think around a few months back, or maybe last year, dont remember..I was like "The day I date an nsyncer is the day Jack dates Christina Aguilera" oops. I should have bitten my tongue. I never thought I would go out with him, ever. Then again..I never thought id like Nick, and look where that went. Ah kelly falls for the most impossible people, except Joshua. It was funny when I thought I had to break it off with him because people thought we werent good for each other or people thought he was too old. But hes perfect for me, hes an adult and he treats me like one. A part of me knows im still a kid, cause I fucking act like one. But sometimes I like to show the woman in me. He makes me feel like a woman and I love that. I guess from now on, im going to have to try and swallow my pride, and let him attend these things with her. They are...friends.
NYC here I come, again. Im staying at my apartment, I love NYC, I hate LA. The only reason I like it is because of my Family, Mandy, Josh, Britney, Wade and Michelle when she visits. I want to move to NYC, but mum wants to stay in LA, because we just bought the damn house. It is nice but eh..LA is so sickning already, I want to hurl. So yes..Its going to NYC today and tomorrow, then fly to europe for the MTV Europe Awards (Which I will see Nick & Christina in). Then im going home for a little rest, then its back to NYC, then back to europe, then back to NYC and finally home. I am going to be working so hard..My record comes out in 2 weeks, my first concert ever on the same day and the new season premieres, bloody fucking hell. Joshua is trying to go to my record release party. I really hope he gets to go.
If you guys are not Busy The 26th Of Nov I invite you to my record release party & Concert. Thank you.
That is all.