Sep 21, 2006 22:43
it's amazing how much one smile from a random stranger can instill so much happiness. granted it was for two seconds, but it was something. sitting at starbucks waiting for time to go by. i hate the literal. i'd rather speak in silence. i can't take anymore. i want to get out of this.
what is surface? to imprison within one's brain some curious dream from which one fears one might awake. dream. discover. i feel the rush, the welling but nothing happens. it's like he knows. He always knows. what do you do when you can't hide anymore? she passes. i cringe. no. smile. it's in the absence he is present. it's not the being. it's the pedastal, it's his essence. drawn to kill joy. be naked. be open. it's not my time to go.
synethesia.
i think i'll find another way. it's darker now. too much. the artist. the recluse. watch. wait. listen.