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Sometimes i open my lj.. and have nothing to say..
I think i have lost myself in my problems.
I think im drowning..
and i'm alone.
No one can save me..
Lately.. when i lay down to go to sleep i wonder if i don't wake up.. if anyone will show to my funeral...
I've felt insecure when it comes to my friends lately.. like they're not really 'friends'
not my online friends.. they're fine im not worried about those..
but the ones that live here.. w/ me..
im not sure if its them or me but we seem so distant from each other.
On another note....
I wish i could skip valentines day.. just not wake up until the day after.
Ive never liked valentines, i never had a reason to.. in highschool.. we would sit int he lunch room and watch the secretary bring all the cheerleaders boquets of flowers..
i never got anything..
i always wondered what it would be like..
but i dont think that will ever happen.
its just one more reminder of how alone i am in my own little fucking world.
ok enough feeling sorry for myself.
I think i have lost myself in my problems.
I think im drowning..
and i'm alone.
No one can save me..
Lately.. when i lay down to go to sleep i wonder if i don't wake up.. if anyone will show to my funeral...
I've felt insecure when it comes to my friends lately.. like they're not really 'friends'
not my online friends.. they're fine im not worried about those..
but the ones that live here.. w/ me..
im not sure if its them or me but we seem so distant from each other.
On another note....
I wish i could skip valentines day.. just not wake up until the day after.
Ive never liked valentines, i never had a reason to.. in highschool.. we would sit int he lunch room and watch the secretary bring all the cheerleaders boquets of flowers..
i never got anything..
i always wondered what it would be like..
but i dont think that will ever happen.
its just one more reminder of how alone i am in my own little fucking world.
ok enough feeling sorry for myself.