What's it for...
I feel sick. Let me just...tell you things from my side. Sure it isnt the only side...but just a glimpse. My sister Abbey, most of you know she is a horrible human being. She says nasty hurtful things to my mother and father, she often refers to my father as a "Human Bank Machine" My sister just got a new apartment that my father is paying for. Granted she IS in school and needs a place to live...but this apartment is like a freakin palace. Very expensive and just for her. She got allllll new stuff to furnish it. Spent a lot of money. A lot of my dads money. She asked to get her teeth bleeched...DONE. She asked for 110 bux to get her hair dyed...DONE. Mind you, she doesnt have a job and she is never home, always stays with her boyfriend. Then there is me. Ok Im not the perfect child, no I didnt do that well in school mostly because of my ADD...but I did go back and get my GED..and I did well on it. Yes Im living at home, but thats because I got divorced from an ass hole husband. No I havent had a job all summer, but Ill be DAMNED if I didnt try. I tried everywhere!!! Finally I do have a job...I start tuesday. All of this started with me wanting to get my hair done for my audition (american idol) I did a bunch of shit for mom...I offered to weed the entire front yard for dad...I never ONCE just asked for the money. We got into a fight about abbey and how she gets EVERYTHING...then I said "Dad...I may really need your help for american idol...Im not sure Im gonna have enough to get there" and he said "Claire, this is your dream, not ours".......
I always thought parents wanted their childrens dreams to come true. If I knew my daughter had a passion...and a talent...I would do anything to get her a shot. On top of that, I have to go to the audition alone...all alone...no one there to support me (if I even get to go at all) So yeah, if I go...look for me...on TV...the girl all by herself next to the other girl with all her friends and family there. I know I know...Im feeling sorry for myself right? Thats what you are thinking...but Im telling you...singing is all Ive ever wanted to do since as long as I can remember. Its my passion and my dream. I really might of had a shot...you who know me know I dont have an ego...but I really am good. Im good...and I had a good shot. Now the dream is over...before it even began.
I always thought parents wanted their childrens dreams to come true. If I knew my daughter had a passion...and a talent...I would do anything to get her a shot. On top of that, I have to go to the audition alone...all alone...no one there to support me (if I even get to go at all) So yeah, if I go...look for me...on TV...the girl all by herself next to the other girl with all her friends and family there. I know I know...Im feeling sorry for myself right? Thats what you are thinking...but Im telling you...singing is all Ive ever wanted to do since as long as I can remember. Its my passion and my dream. I really might of had a shot...you who know me know I dont have an ego...but I really am good. Im good...and I had a good shot. Now the dream is over...before it even began.