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Jamie got a job! She doesn't have many hours right now but hopefully over time they will give her more, and it may turn into a full time thing eventually.
I am still jobless of course and I hate to say it, but I'm starting to feel a little sorry for myself. I feel like I've rewinded to two years ago, when I was stuck living in the country with my awful father. During that time I didn't have a car or a job, and I wasn't in school, so I basically was just sitting around the house 24/7 until one of my friends would come get me. Now I'm doing the exact same thing.
I feel so useless. I should be further in my life at this point. I'm starting to fall back into that feeling of "Who cares what happens...I don't care about anything..." I truly don't want to be this way, but when you're doing nothing but sitting home alone all day, you're left with these thoughts of hopelessness.
This whole situation makes me think of that Dido song with the line "I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore." I'm just so anti-me lately. *sigh*
I am still jobless of course and I hate to say it, but I'm starting to feel a little sorry for myself. I feel like I've rewinded to two years ago, when I was stuck living in the country with my awful father. During that time I didn't have a car or a job, and I wasn't in school, so I basically was just sitting around the house 24/7 until one of my friends would come get me. Now I'm doing the exact same thing.
I feel so useless. I should be further in my life at this point. I'm starting to fall back into that feeling of "Who cares what happens...I don't care about anything..." I truly don't want to be this way, but when you're doing nothing but sitting home alone all day, you're left with these thoughts of hopelessness.
This whole situation makes me think of that Dido song with the line "I'm so lonely I don't even want to be with myself anymore." I'm just so anti-me lately. *sigh*