from meg
okay, i looked through my dream journal. the best sex dream i found was from 8.1.03: "starfish hooking up."
there's also 1.5.02: "i was in an italian porn video. i was in a hot tub with three other women, and we were all wearing kimonos and shawls over our heads. one italian woman's kimono was supposed to fall open to show her penis, because the producers had digitally altered it so she had one. in the next scene, we were all supposed to be making out with our italian male porn stars, and i was lying in front of a fireplace and people were putting makeup on me. and i was telling someone how i had always wanted to be in a porn movie because i'd always wanted to be the sex idol--i think everyone does sometimes. also, fifteen people got to be features editor in the dream."
haha..oh silver chips and italian pornography.
have we talked about porn yet? i think we might've in the old orgasms. basically, porn makes me kind of uncomfortable and insecure, but i still haven't decided whether i find it very offensive or not. i mean, i would possibly be disgusted if i saw some, and i would feel that women were being disrespected and misrepresented, and that boys were getting the wrong picture of what sex and girls is supposed to be. but i'm not offended by women as sex objects per se, because really that's all male porn stars are either, and it's just a picture/movie, a fantasy that's supposed to be just about sex, and i don't think porn makes boys think that girl are only good for sex in real life.
also, about the sex idol part of the dream, aka the reason people hook up with so many people in high school. everyone goes through that, right? of wanting validation of attractiveness and trying to find it either through hooking up and then talking about it with everyone so that everyone knows that someone found you attractive, that you went this far with a boy/girl, that s/he did this or that and is that normal and blah blah blah, or through flirting with or getting hit on by a million people. i can't really think of anyone who doesn't fit into the category of having gotten this kind of attention or still wanting this kind of attention. it's a very different thing from the validation you get in a serious relationship; these two kinds of attention do overlap, but people in long-term relationships often still want mass verification of attractiveness (and random hookuppers don't get the security and other types of attention that people in relationships get, obviously). but like...does this phase just get outgrown, or is it there forever? it's a really similar desire to just wanting everyone to like you and think you're really cool, which is probably a phase that never goes away.
there's also 1.5.02: "i was in an italian porn video. i was in a hot tub with three other women, and we were all wearing kimonos and shawls over our heads. one italian woman's kimono was supposed to fall open to show her penis, because the producers had digitally altered it so she had one. in the next scene, we were all supposed to be making out with our italian male porn stars, and i was lying in front of a fireplace and people were putting makeup on me. and i was telling someone how i had always wanted to be in a porn movie because i'd always wanted to be the sex idol--i think everyone does sometimes. also, fifteen people got to be features editor in the dream."
haha..oh silver chips and italian pornography.
have we talked about porn yet? i think we might've in the old orgasms. basically, porn makes me kind of uncomfortable and insecure, but i still haven't decided whether i find it very offensive or not. i mean, i would possibly be disgusted if i saw some, and i would feel that women were being disrespected and misrepresented, and that boys were getting the wrong picture of what sex and girls is supposed to be. but i'm not offended by women as sex objects per se, because really that's all male porn stars are either, and it's just a picture/movie, a fantasy that's supposed to be just about sex, and i don't think porn makes boys think that girl are only good for sex in real life.
also, about the sex idol part of the dream, aka the reason people hook up with so many people in high school. everyone goes through that, right? of wanting validation of attractiveness and trying to find it either through hooking up and then talking about it with everyone so that everyone knows that someone found you attractive, that you went this far with a boy/girl, that s/he did this or that and is that normal and blah blah blah, or through flirting with or getting hit on by a million people. i can't really think of anyone who doesn't fit into the category of having gotten this kind of attention or still wanting this kind of attention. it's a very different thing from the validation you get in a serious relationship; these two kinds of attention do overlap, but people in long-term relationships often still want mass verification of attractiveness (and random hookuppers don't get the security and other types of attention that people in relationships get, obviously). but like...does this phase just get outgrown, or is it there forever? it's a really similar desire to just wanting everyone to like you and think you're really cool, which is probably a phase that never goes away.