uy...confusing day...
mmk,
today was odd, although not entirely terrible...
woke up at the exact moment i HAD to leave to get to class..so i rushed over to mercer to make it to class just in time. after that, met up wit aj in the cafeteria n as we were walkin out, that girl lauren that i am talkin to comes around the corner. we said hi n before we parted i asked her bout something corporate and if she liked them. she said she did and so i invited her to the concert with me n my friends in january. she'll lemme know by friday. after that, me and aj went outside and just chilled. lauren came back out n chilled with us. aj left so her n i were talkin for a bit before we both had to get to class. i walked with her n we just talked. she's a really cool girl. i got her phone number :) aj asked "dude, where'd this sudden burst of confidence come from?" yea..i dunno..i think for the simple fact i was running on 4 hours sleep i just went for it. it worked..so meuh. after that, went to class..nuthin special. went to pizza wings wit aj and got a nice fuckin shake n a big ass stromboli. yum. after my last class..came home to catch up on my sleep. then headed back out to mercer to tape the basketball game. dayum it was actually exciting! they won in overtime...thats how u debate!! err....play bball. k, after that, stopped over at applebees real quick, but no one was there, so i went over megan's to chill out. k, right before i got to her house i texted that girl lauren if she would like to hang out some time. k here's where it gets interesting. k now i had some feelings for her just to get to know her cuz she's really cool and yea...i kinda am interested in her. she texts me back a lil while later "don't get creeped out by this, but i can't hang out with you. you're the kind of guy i could easily get feelings for and i have a boyfriend and don't want to fuck it up" WTF mate?! that was completely out in left field. but it was a nice curveball. upped my confidence. however...she's taken. that part sucks...big... i talked her into atleast just hanging out and that i won't jeapordize anything between her and her bf cuz i know what that is like and yea..i won't do it. but nonetheless..she's a really really cool girl and i would love to have her as a friend. megan put it simply tho...if she could see having feelings for me now...then maybe her relationship with her boyfriend of 5 months isn't really all that great. i'm not gonna do anything tho, not at the moment, i just want to get to know her..thas all. and she's comin to that concert dammit! so we were just texting back and forth for a while. maybe she'll come over on sunday when we all play poker. who knows. so me n meg just talked bout random shit tonight, played a round of war, she kicked my ass. then we watch "very bad things" that's a fucked up "dark comedy"...no emphasis on the comedy. not funny whatsoever. blah, so now i'm home...thinking and contemplating. this whole situation can be looked at on so many levels, i dunno what to do. on the one hand..i could just try and win her over and nuts to the other guy..on the other hand, i know how he'll feel and i would feel guilty...on the third imaginary hand i've come up with is that maybe if her n i just hang out eventually she'll just come to the conclusion on her own her and that guy weren't so great if she didn't even want to hang out with me for fear of having feelings. i dunno...i'm gonna crash now. goodnight all!
today was odd, although not entirely terrible...
woke up at the exact moment i HAD to leave to get to class..so i rushed over to mercer to make it to class just in time. after that, met up wit aj in the cafeteria n as we were walkin out, that girl lauren that i am talkin to comes around the corner. we said hi n before we parted i asked her bout something corporate and if she liked them. she said she did and so i invited her to the concert with me n my friends in january. she'll lemme know by friday. after that, me and aj went outside and just chilled. lauren came back out n chilled with us. aj left so her n i were talkin for a bit before we both had to get to class. i walked with her n we just talked. she's a really cool girl. i got her phone number :) aj asked "dude, where'd this sudden burst of confidence come from?" yea..i dunno..i think for the simple fact i was running on 4 hours sleep i just went for it. it worked..so meuh. after that, went to class..nuthin special. went to pizza wings wit aj and got a nice fuckin shake n a big ass stromboli. yum. after my last class..came home to catch up on my sleep. then headed back out to mercer to tape the basketball game. dayum it was actually exciting! they won in overtime...thats how u debate!! err....play bball. k, after that, stopped over at applebees real quick, but no one was there, so i went over megan's to chill out. k, right before i got to her house i texted that girl lauren if she would like to hang out some time. k here's where it gets interesting. k now i had some feelings for her just to get to know her cuz she's really cool and yea...i kinda am interested in her. she texts me back a lil while later "don't get creeped out by this, but i can't hang out with you. you're the kind of guy i could easily get feelings for and i have a boyfriend and don't want to fuck it up" WTF mate?! that was completely out in left field. but it was a nice curveball. upped my confidence. however...she's taken. that part sucks...big... i talked her into atleast just hanging out and that i won't jeapordize anything between her and her bf cuz i know what that is like and yea..i won't do it. but nonetheless..she's a really really cool girl and i would love to have her as a friend. megan put it simply tho...if she could see having feelings for me now...then maybe her relationship with her boyfriend of 5 months isn't really all that great. i'm not gonna do anything tho, not at the moment, i just want to get to know her..thas all. and she's comin to that concert dammit! so we were just texting back and forth for a while. maybe she'll come over on sunday when we all play poker. who knows. so me n meg just talked bout random shit tonight, played a round of war, she kicked my ass. then we watch "very bad things" that's a fucked up "dark comedy"...no emphasis on the comedy. not funny whatsoever. blah, so now i'm home...thinking and contemplating. this whole situation can be looked at on so many levels, i dunno what to do. on the one hand..i could just try and win her over and nuts to the other guy..on the other hand, i know how he'll feel and i would feel guilty...on the third imaginary hand i've come up with is that maybe if her n i just hang out eventually she'll just come to the conclusion on her own her and that guy weren't so great if she didn't even want to hang out with me for fear of having feelings. i dunno...i'm gonna crash now. goodnight all!