Holy Crap....
Damn. Its been forever since I've even been on this damn thing...I think even I finally just got over it. Its all about MySpace now I guess. LOL. Who knows. Eh, not really...I've just been busy actually hvaing a life instead of "trying" to have one. Work is freakin' kickin' my ass. I feel like I'm always at work...in fact I'm suprised I was smart enough to take the morning off today from my moms work so that I could sleep in a bit before going to my work...damn, that really was a good move on my part.LOL.
So yeah, besides work, I've just been hanging out w. my friends alot. For the most part I've been w/ Aly, Mike, Josh here and there and of course Chris. We are like the freakin' possy...its so sad. I got home from work yesterday knowing that Chris is here since he stayed the night (And yes, my parents know! They said he could-so don't give me that shit-lol), then Josh pulls up...and about 5minutes later here come Aly and Michael. Haha, its been so much fun!! I am kinda starting to feel a little bad...I'm hardly ever home anymore, and when I am...people are always here...oh well, I LOVE it.
So uh...yeah, Zac called me from Connecticut the other day. Apparently he is all finished w/ Boot camp and now has time to talk and shit so he gave me his new numbers. I gotta admit, it really screwed w/ my head having him call...it made me question everthing that I've come close to since he's been gone and everyone that I've become close with. Normally, when he calls no matter who i like or who i am dating, I forget all about them and fall head over heals back in love with him...but NOT this time. No one will ever know how GREAT of a feeling that was to have. We got into mini detail about the shit that I heard about him not truly loving me and all that--and of course he denied it and said that he still does and blah blah blah. But for the first time it didnt take the same affect on me. I still love him--he was my first love and I always will...and as long as being his FRIEND doesn't afftect my relationships now...then I want to be just that, a friend. I just realized how much happier I am now, how I am treated with respect now, and how feelings are shared and not just one-sided like in his and my relationship...an its a nice feeling to have and believe that its true...it feels more right. So yeah...I dunno...guess we'll just see what happens...lol
School starts on the 26th. Ugh. :( I'm so pimp tho--I made my schedule so I only have 3 classes...I'm a full time student AND i wont have school on Fridays. HAHA. YAY.
So yeah, besides work, I've just been hanging out w. my friends alot. For the most part I've been w/ Aly, Mike, Josh here and there and of course Chris. We are like the freakin' possy...its so sad. I got home from work yesterday knowing that Chris is here since he stayed the night (And yes, my parents know! They said he could-so don't give me that shit-lol), then Josh pulls up...and about 5minutes later here come Aly and Michael. Haha, its been so much fun!! I am kinda starting to feel a little bad...I'm hardly ever home anymore, and when I am...people are always here...oh well, I LOVE it.
So uh...yeah, Zac called me from Connecticut the other day. Apparently he is all finished w/ Boot camp and now has time to talk and shit so he gave me his new numbers. I gotta admit, it really screwed w/ my head having him call...it made me question everthing that I've come close to since he's been gone and everyone that I've become close with. Normally, when he calls no matter who i like or who i am dating, I forget all about them and fall head over heals back in love with him...but NOT this time. No one will ever know how GREAT of a feeling that was to have. We got into mini detail about the shit that I heard about him not truly loving me and all that--and of course he denied it and said that he still does and blah blah blah. But for the first time it didnt take the same affect on me. I still love him--he was my first love and I always will...and as long as being his FRIEND doesn't afftect my relationships now...then I want to be just that, a friend. I just realized how much happier I am now, how I am treated with respect now, and how feelings are shared and not just one-sided like in his and my relationship...an its a nice feeling to have and believe that its true...it feels more right. So yeah...I dunno...guess we'll just see what happens...lol
School starts on the 26th. Ugh. :( I'm so pimp tho--I made my schedule so I only have 3 classes...I'm a full time student AND i wont have school on Fridays. HAHA. YAY.