you cant help who you like.
ive come to the conclusion that:
you can't help who you like.
you like who you like and there's not changing it.
why am i so attracted to someone who shows limited and exclusive attraction back? i dont understand it. and the worst part is, it makes me that much more attracted to him. grrrr. he calls me out of the blue and try hard not to contact him unless he makes the effort.
my theory is: if i dont make the effort its ok, that way i wont be desperate. he has my number, he knows how to get a hold of me and he knows what he wants. so if he wants me he'll find me. and he does. everytime.
i give him want he wants but its not enough. at least not for me. i give it off asthough its ok, its not official or exclusive. but i know deep down that im completely dissatisfied. i want a relationship. i want him to feel the same as i do. but im affraid. im affraid that if i tell him that he'll leave me for good, and ill never see him again. but then it seems as if everytime he disappears. and ive finally given up and let go, poof! he's there again. he'll come back and talk sweet to me, we'll hook up. and then we'll flirt and give it another shot and with each round i'll convince myself that i wont get attached and i wont get hurt. but i know its just an act. its my cover, deep down, within the pages you'll see me inside sad and disappointed in what we have created.
he says he'll do this, he'll say he wants this but then i know it wont happen and ive come the realization that i wont believe it until i see it.
and if i were braver i would tell him this, to his face:
'i hate how i don't talk to you for about a month but then all of a sudden you talk to me again and its as if nothing happened && i slowly start falling for you...all over again.'
you can't help who you like.
you like who you like and there's not changing it.
why am i so attracted to someone who shows limited and exclusive attraction back? i dont understand it. and the worst part is, it makes me that much more attracted to him. grrrr. he calls me out of the blue and try hard not to contact him unless he makes the effort.
my theory is: if i dont make the effort its ok, that way i wont be desperate. he has my number, he knows how to get a hold of me and he knows what he wants. so if he wants me he'll find me. and he does. everytime.
i give him want he wants but its not enough. at least not for me. i give it off asthough its ok, its not official or exclusive. but i know deep down that im completely dissatisfied. i want a relationship. i want him to feel the same as i do. but im affraid. im affraid that if i tell him that he'll leave me for good, and ill never see him again. but then it seems as if everytime he disappears. and ive finally given up and let go, poof! he's there again. he'll come back and talk sweet to me, we'll hook up. and then we'll flirt and give it another shot and with each round i'll convince myself that i wont get attached and i wont get hurt. but i know its just an act. its my cover, deep down, within the pages you'll see me inside sad and disappointed in what we have created.
he says he'll do this, he'll say he wants this but then i know it wont happen and ive come the realization that i wont believe it until i see it.
and if i were braver i would tell him this, to his face:
'i hate how i don't talk to you for about a month but then all of a sudden you talk to me again and its as if nothing happened && i slowly start falling for you...all over again.'