and it seems so.. almost.. perfect.

[orangez14]

well.. it's funny how it works
but it makes perfect sense.. to both of us
which is scary

me and lesean are apart.. but not broken up.
i moved back in with my mom
and he's living at his home

and what's so crazy i am so content in having my own rooom
my own space
being extremely, and overly organized. ha
i just wish i still had him there to sleep with
i love sleeping with him

but.. we've agreed to not see anyone else..
so that takes alot of the uneasiness off

but it's ok..

we're going to the bahamas on a cruise at the end of aug
and that's what we've been needing to do
get the hell away from shreveport
we've just been so broke
and it's hard to do that when we're broke.

anyways..

it'll give him time to figure out whatever he's got to figure out
i dont understand.. but then again..
i don't try to anymore..
he's been through alot and has every right to do so.

so it gives me time to do whatever
make my plans
and just spend time alone
which i havent had alot.. and i need
work is keeping me swamped though

this will help us when we move to Baltimore

bc we'll know how to handle ourselves
and we wont have to rely on eachother to make it there

i duno
it couldn't happened at a better time

and im just glad.. it's perfect for the both of us.

and i can't wait for the FRIGIN BAHAMAS!!!!
that was Hard keeping that from him and everyone else damnit.