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I feel like I am losing it.
I have never been this burnt out in my entire life, and I cannot figure out how to make it better. I haven't had a vacation since September, and I have been various levels of really ill on and off all year long. I can't sleep because I just lay there and worry about all the shit I need to get done and how little time I have to do it in. To actually fall asleep I have to get back out of bed and work on stuff until I feel calm enough to sleep. I don't even get fucking weekends because of my job, so I think I am going to call them and tell them that I need to be gone until after my cousins wedding. Who knows how they will feel about that, but I need to make some kind of change here.
I hate my classes this quarter. Sociology is okay, but mostly because I like the professor. The material has to potential to be very exciting, but he doesn't really do a whole lot to involve us in class. He and I get along, probably because I participate and am a rather goofy individual. Economics is really dry, but it's challenging enough to pique my interest. TAing is sweet.
My cousin keeps on trying to force me to have some birthday party up in Worthington, without asking whether or not I had plans yet. My mom is probably not going to be home on my birthday and my dad is for sure going to be gone. I don't really feel like dragging all of my friends to worthington, when Jackie and I are probably going to have a birthday party the next weekend. I understand that Brandy is trying to do something nice for me, but she doesn't listen to me.
I have never been this burnt out in my entire life, and I cannot figure out how to make it better. I haven't had a vacation since September, and I have been various levels of really ill on and off all year long. I can't sleep because I just lay there and worry about all the shit I need to get done and how little time I have to do it in. To actually fall asleep I have to get back out of bed and work on stuff until I feel calm enough to sleep. I don't even get fucking weekends because of my job, so I think I am going to call them and tell them that I need to be gone until after my cousins wedding. Who knows how they will feel about that, but I need to make some kind of change here.
I hate my classes this quarter. Sociology is okay, but mostly because I like the professor. The material has to potential to be very exciting, but he doesn't really do a whole lot to involve us in class. He and I get along, probably because I participate and am a rather goofy individual. Economics is really dry, but it's challenging enough to pique my interest. TAing is sweet.
My cousin keeps on trying to force me to have some birthday party up in Worthington, without asking whether or not I had plans yet. My mom is probably not going to be home on my birthday and my dad is for sure going to be gone. I don't really feel like dragging all of my friends to worthington, when Jackie and I are probably going to have a birthday party the next weekend. I understand that Brandy is trying to do something nice for me, but she doesn't listen to me.