idk what to do
hey..
ok im really confused right now like you dont even know i like someone and i really dont think i can. i dont know if i should dont know if i want to well i do. but im afraid to. im really glad he fun with stephy. but theres so many things running through my head right now. i dont know what to do. i want school to start i dont really want summer anymore theres not much to do accept guard and i dont think i can go to that camp. which is going to suck cuz i really wanted to. i really am not in the mood to chat i miss someone n im really confused i really just want my blade. no i dont but i dont even know bout that anymore. i really should just get sent away cuz then i could figure this out. i havent even been home 24 hours n i want to leave again. what is with this. just let me be. ok i dont know what to do and i really dont want to talk about it cuz everytime i do i either get really bitchy about moody or i just dont want to talk. i just feel really odd in my own skin right now. i want to go bak to houston. i really wish we wouldnt of went cuz i ffelt like i missed out on something. :\ i really am just being dumb. i have feelings but i dont really know what they are. hey if you wanna help me figure this out by all means go for it. i just am being weird about something and i really shouldnt be. im just really not myself. i just want to go away. just wnat to scream want to get outta my body. plus with these days every1 getting a boyfriend i feel even more outta place sometimes. never had a bf n im not sure if i want one. i just need some time to myself so if i dont want to talk dont take it as im going to do sumthing or if something is wrong im just udderly confused pist @ myself and just really really really really confused
love kt
i love......................
ok im really confused right now like you dont even know i like someone and i really dont think i can. i dont know if i should dont know if i want to well i do. but im afraid to. im really glad he fun with stephy. but theres so many things running through my head right now. i dont know what to do. i want school to start i dont really want summer anymore theres not much to do accept guard and i dont think i can go to that camp. which is going to suck cuz i really wanted to. i really am not in the mood to chat i miss someone n im really confused i really just want my blade. no i dont but i dont even know bout that anymore. i really should just get sent away cuz then i could figure this out. i havent even been home 24 hours n i want to leave again. what is with this. just let me be. ok i dont know what to do and i really dont want to talk about it cuz everytime i do i either get really bitchy about moody or i just dont want to talk. i just feel really odd in my own skin right now. i want to go bak to houston. i really wish we wouldnt of went cuz i ffelt like i missed out on something. :\ i really am just being dumb. i have feelings but i dont really know what they are. hey if you wanna help me figure this out by all means go for it. i just am being weird about something and i really shouldnt be. im just really not myself. i just want to go away. just wnat to scream want to get outta my body. plus with these days every1 getting a boyfriend i feel even more outta place sometimes. never had a bf n im not sure if i want one. i just need some time to myself so if i dont want to talk dont take it as im going to do sumthing or if something is wrong im just udderly confused pist @ myself and just really really really really confused
love kt
i love......................