*sigh*
so life has been pretty solid lately, up until tonight. but first, i'll start with earlier in the week. i finished my paper for human development, which only means i can work on the other 3 papers i have due next week. blah. so school sucks, but we're almost done, so. then, i have to teach in RS again on the 12th, and i have no idea when i'm gonna be able to plan for that lesson, acks! also, i start work on the 6th, and i'm really scared. i'm afraid i'm gonna do something wrong on the first day, or just anything, ya know? and i really hope that i can get my first paycheck BEFORE xmas break so i can have some money while i'm in utah. my family is definitely coming, but they don't know when. so we'll see.
i got allan's wedding invitation today. their pic is way cute, and they look happy. i'm happy for them. best of wishes.
so this last weekend, i went to a soccer tourney in SD. it was fun. i got a ride there from a girl who turns out to be a lesbian, and when i was told that, i realized that throughout the whole car ride she was flirting with me. it was scary now that i think about it. but at least i didnt know it at the time, otherwise, i would've really freaked out.
so, the bad news. ever since my grandpa died, i guess my grandma's condition with her high blood pressure has been worsening, the doctor keeps pressuring her to lose weight so she can live longer, etc, and well, quite frankly, it's not working. she's taking perscription drugs, and my mum doesn't like it one bit. she wants my grandma to come live with us, so i really hope that works out. and also, my aunt Alma's situation isn't looking too good either, so there's a possibility Angie-Marie and Victoria will move to Cali, too. maybe even with us! that'd be so awesome.
so my grandma. gosh, now if she dies too, i wouldn't be able to handle it. i seriously will withdraw from society, even more so than i already do. i think i'd just have to give up on life. i always thought my grandparents would be around to see me serve a mission, get married, and meet their great-grandchildren. *sigh* my grandpa's gone, so now there's only my grandma. and i know my grandpa's in a better place, but that doesn't make it easier. so i just wanna be done with school. this is really bad timing. i'm already anxious and on the edge cuz of finals and papers to do. i might even have to reschedule when im gonna teach for RS and maybe even wait til next month to do it again. cuz life is iffy right now. i donno what to do. i'm lost.
i got allan's wedding invitation today. their pic is way cute, and they look happy. i'm happy for them. best of wishes.
so this last weekend, i went to a soccer tourney in SD. it was fun. i got a ride there from a girl who turns out to be a lesbian, and when i was told that, i realized that throughout the whole car ride she was flirting with me. it was scary now that i think about it. but at least i didnt know it at the time, otherwise, i would've really freaked out.
so, the bad news. ever since my grandpa died, i guess my grandma's condition with her high blood pressure has been worsening, the doctor keeps pressuring her to lose weight so she can live longer, etc, and well, quite frankly, it's not working. she's taking perscription drugs, and my mum doesn't like it one bit. she wants my grandma to come live with us, so i really hope that works out. and also, my aunt Alma's situation isn't looking too good either, so there's a possibility Angie-Marie and Victoria will move to Cali, too. maybe even with us! that'd be so awesome.
so my grandma. gosh, now if she dies too, i wouldn't be able to handle it. i seriously will withdraw from society, even more so than i already do. i think i'd just have to give up on life. i always thought my grandparents would be around to see me serve a mission, get married, and meet their great-grandchildren. *sigh* my grandpa's gone, so now there's only my grandma. and i know my grandpa's in a better place, but that doesn't make it easier. so i just wanna be done with school. this is really bad timing. i'm already anxious and on the edge cuz of finals and papers to do. i might even have to reschedule when im gonna teach for RS and maybe even wait til next month to do it again. cuz life is iffy right now. i donno what to do. i'm lost.