So....Nursing....Wow!
Just about everyone that I told about my admittance to the nursing program at NHTI said in response that they heard it was a huge amount of work. Well worth it, but serious effort. I didn't really know what to expect, but the first week of classes slammed me violently in the direction of understanding! There's a lot to fucking do in 2 years. It normally takes students 4 years to accomplish the nursing classes, perhaps longer to finish their electives necessary. I'm doing both in 2. Damn. The Nursing class itself is a huge ordeal. Normal classes at NHTI are worth 3 credits. Hard ones are 4. Nursing is worth 8. That's more than my other two classes combined. Damn.
There's a Lecture that meets for 5 hours a week, then there's a lab that meets for 3 hours a week, and a Clinical Practice Section where student nurses are dropped into an actual hospital setting to get hands-on clinical experience in the field, which is in the form of a 7 hour shift one day a week. There's a lot of freaking homework!
I got overwhelmed briefly after the second lecture, because the professor was talking about the fact that once you're a nurse, you'll always be a nurse. It's a life-long, often life-consuming job to help people the way nurses do. I love to help people. I don't mind spending a lot of time helping people. But I got really scared for a minute because I thought that once I got into nursing, I could never get out. About ten minutes later I realized it wasn't nearly as big of a deal as I was building it up to be. It's hard work, but it's also great pay and benefits, and I can advance in it while I figure out what I really want to do. I've been thinking about the possibility of opening a clinic that practices alternative medicine. With some more research, and a decent amount of investment, I think we could help a great many people without ever resorting to invasive surgery, chemical narcotics, or anything painful.
But that's an idea for the future. There are many things I want to do, and writing, drawing, creating, sewing, all those things are in there too, and countless more. I feel as though I've finally set myself on the right path to open all the necessary doors to be able to accomplish all of these things.
I have made an apparently seamless transformation from a creature of numbness and dark to one of great feeling, love, and light. Gold has become what I am, in many respects. It is the color which frees all my stresses and releases all my burdens, and with it I can do the same for others, for a time, anyway. I was reading some obscure horoscope information on a website devoted to the zodiac some time ago, specifically I was reading about Scorpio, since I fall under its sign, and along with being right about a great many things in its personality descriptions, the website also mentioned three different types of Scorpios. Based on Spiritual attunement, awakening, enlightenment, whatever you want to call it, the Sign is divided into three different animal avatars. The first is the Scorpion, which is the lowest of the three signs, and very much secular in nature (by secular I mean physically focused, not necessarily denouncing spirituality, just not really pursuing it). The Scorpion is described as being very determined, successful, and driven, an easy money-maker, someone devoted to work such as law, criminal justice, sales, etc.
The next animal up on the scale is the Eagle, a halfway point in spiritual consciousness, perhaps an agnostic, someone who is not particularly sure what they believe but they know they believe in something. They are also driven and determined like the Scorpions, but see some of the bigger picture in meaning and truth. As the website continued on, the next description brought tears to my eyes. I'll see if I can find the exact quote, it was quite powerful.
Can't find it. Which is weird, because I looked at the list of links I know it's under and couldn't find it at any of them. I know it was there though, I didn't hallucinate!
The third and final sign of Scorpio is the Phoenix. The Fiery Raptor that rebirths itself every millenia, whose tears can restore the most grievous injuries, whose feathers can blind the sightless, and whose song can paralyze the deaf with beauty. The Phoenix understands the absolutes of the universe, and can see THE big picture through the eyes of its greater spirit. The Phoenix is driven to help others, to love unconditionally, and to defend those who deserve it to the very end, and beyond. It is an avatar of incredible spiritual understanding and the cycle of death and rebirth is understood by those born under the sign of the Scorpion which carry this title.
That's something like what the article said. I got chills and tears and adrenaline and all when I read that and I nearly swooned (in a good way) when it mentioned that the flames of the Phoenix' rebirth are GOLDEN IN COLOR!!!
Yeah. Freaking amazing. I really think that my crown chakra was aligned (attuned?) somehow, and that's why I feel like everything has fallen into place. The most spiritually strong of the chakras let me see the truth of myself. Wow, there's something to be said about that. Empowering much?
Anyway, I'm going to stop geeking out about all that for a while and focus on my homework now, which I have more than too much of, but it's okay, 'cause I'm not stressed.
The one thing that is bothering me is the fact that my closest and most loved of all my friends is leaving for Georgia the day after tomorrow, and I won't get to see her for more than 10 weeks. I know it will be fine, and I know she's going to have the time of her life, but I still worry because I love her so much and being away from her even for a little while makes me feel a little less complete.
Listen to me, I sound like a soap opera blind date contestant. Yikes!
Anywho, love you all, unconditionally (see aforementioned Phoenix EPICZORZNESSZORZ), don't hesitate to call if you need me, or email or IM, though I'm still on AIM less than is ideal for anyone wanting to get in touch with me. Hope you're all doing fantastic. If not, call me, and I'll change it. ^,.,^ (that's vampire smilie)
There's a Lecture that meets for 5 hours a week, then there's a lab that meets for 3 hours a week, and a Clinical Practice Section where student nurses are dropped into an actual hospital setting to get hands-on clinical experience in the field, which is in the form of a 7 hour shift one day a week. There's a lot of freaking homework!
I got overwhelmed briefly after the second lecture, because the professor was talking about the fact that once you're a nurse, you'll always be a nurse. It's a life-long, often life-consuming job to help people the way nurses do. I love to help people. I don't mind spending a lot of time helping people. But I got really scared for a minute because I thought that once I got into nursing, I could never get out. About ten minutes later I realized it wasn't nearly as big of a deal as I was building it up to be. It's hard work, but it's also great pay and benefits, and I can advance in it while I figure out what I really want to do. I've been thinking about the possibility of opening a clinic that practices alternative medicine. With some more research, and a decent amount of investment, I think we could help a great many people without ever resorting to invasive surgery, chemical narcotics, or anything painful.
But that's an idea for the future. There are many things I want to do, and writing, drawing, creating, sewing, all those things are in there too, and countless more. I feel as though I've finally set myself on the right path to open all the necessary doors to be able to accomplish all of these things.
I have made an apparently seamless transformation from a creature of numbness and dark to one of great feeling, love, and light. Gold has become what I am, in many respects. It is the color which frees all my stresses and releases all my burdens, and with it I can do the same for others, for a time, anyway. I was reading some obscure horoscope information on a website devoted to the zodiac some time ago, specifically I was reading about Scorpio, since I fall under its sign, and along with being right about a great many things in its personality descriptions, the website also mentioned three different types of Scorpios. Based on Spiritual attunement, awakening, enlightenment, whatever you want to call it, the Sign is divided into three different animal avatars. The first is the Scorpion, which is the lowest of the three signs, and very much secular in nature (by secular I mean physically focused, not necessarily denouncing spirituality, just not really pursuing it). The Scorpion is described as being very determined, successful, and driven, an easy money-maker, someone devoted to work such as law, criminal justice, sales, etc.
The next animal up on the scale is the Eagle, a halfway point in spiritual consciousness, perhaps an agnostic, someone who is not particularly sure what they believe but they know they believe in something. They are also driven and determined like the Scorpions, but see some of the bigger picture in meaning and truth. As the website continued on, the next description brought tears to my eyes. I'll see if I can find the exact quote, it was quite powerful.
Can't find it. Which is weird, because I looked at the list of links I know it's under and couldn't find it at any of them. I know it was there though, I didn't hallucinate!
The third and final sign of Scorpio is the Phoenix. The Fiery Raptor that rebirths itself every millenia, whose tears can restore the most grievous injuries, whose feathers can blind the sightless, and whose song can paralyze the deaf with beauty. The Phoenix understands the absolutes of the universe, and can see THE big picture through the eyes of its greater spirit. The Phoenix is driven to help others, to love unconditionally, and to defend those who deserve it to the very end, and beyond. It is an avatar of incredible spiritual understanding and the cycle of death and rebirth is understood by those born under the sign of the Scorpion which carry this title.
That's something like what the article said. I got chills and tears and adrenaline and all when I read that and I nearly swooned (in a good way) when it mentioned that the flames of the Phoenix' rebirth are GOLDEN IN COLOR!!!
Yeah. Freaking amazing. I really think that my crown chakra was aligned (attuned?) somehow, and that's why I feel like everything has fallen into place. The most spiritually strong of the chakras let me see the truth of myself. Wow, there's something to be said about that. Empowering much?
Anyway, I'm going to stop geeking out about all that for a while and focus on my homework now, which I have more than too much of, but it's okay, 'cause I'm not stressed.
The one thing that is bothering me is the fact that my closest and most loved of all my friends is leaving for Georgia the day after tomorrow, and I won't get to see her for more than 10 weeks. I know it will be fine, and I know she's going to have the time of her life, but I still worry because I love her so much and being away from her even for a little while makes me feel a little less complete.
Listen to me, I sound like a soap opera blind date contestant. Yikes!
Anywho, love you all, unconditionally (see aforementioned Phoenix EPICZORZNESSZORZ), don't hesitate to call if you need me, or email or IM, though I'm still on AIM less than is ideal for anyone wanting to get in touch with me. Hope you're all doing fantastic. If not, call me, and I'll change it. ^,.,^ (that's vampire smilie)