Yay, Nay, I don't know
Work was horrible. I was busy, it was hot in my section and with my cold I thought I was going to pass out, even though I knew that I wouldn't cuz I never do....I just get the horrible feeling that I am. Work actually made me cry....you know me, I have to have things a certain way, and when all the underwear wasn't sized and I knew that it wasn't going to be sized, I had a slight breakdown.....over UNDERWEAR!!!! I mean, come on. I don't think that was the reason, just the trigger. When we clean up, I'm always by myself....I'm all by myself all evening cuz of where I work, and then I have to clean all by myself and listen to everyone else work with a buddy or talk about something funny. When I'm done my area, I ALWAYS get sent somewhere to work on something by myself.....I hate it. I like being by myself sometimes, cuz I can get more done, but lately, school has been my only release from being alone, but no one likes school anymore, so they aren't focused...and it still makes me feel kinda alone.....seeing people walk to class together, when I walk alone (not all the time, but enough times) I get lonely....maybe it's cuz I used to always be alone, now I'm trying to compensate for it. Also, I was upset cuz I figured that my dad wouldn't be home tonight. Not that it should have mattered, cuz he would have been in bed already, but I still care. (He was home, by the way). I guess I'm just going through a period of "I don't want to be alone."
On the good side, I left so late that there was almost nobody on the roads, so I finally took the highway!!! I was sooooo nervous, but I did it.
That's it.
On the good side, I left so late that there was almost nobody on the roads, so I finally took the highway!!! I was sooooo nervous, but I did it.
That's it.