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[orange_hi_liter]

why am i so skeptical? i swear, i can never believe anything is truly sincere. & it's a real pain in the ass, because it gets me so paranoid. i'm always thinking about the what ifs, & i never take reality into consideration. so these imaginary situations are built up in my head, & that's what i start to believe. it all goes away when i come back to reality, but once i'm alone again & letting my mind wander, the paranoid thoughts come back. i have no idea why i'm like this. i've never had any sort of experience to make me so paranoid & deceived. this probably all makes no sense whatsoever. i'm sorry if i confused you, lol.

i should've said something, but i've said it enough,
by the way my words were fading
rather waste some time with you.