Dec 29, 2005 17:13
michael took me & my sisters out to boston pizza for lunch. then he took us to chapters & bought us stuff. I got the 4th asoue book & an astrology book on tauruses. it was really nice of him. I really miss my mum, though. I'm so glad she's coming home tomorrow night.
today at lunch shaylah tells me that jesse & shannon hate me. it didn't really surprise me, but it still hurt. a lot. considering I've never done anything to either of them. I've never been anything but nice to jesse & sometimes I ask shannon what she has against me, but other than that I'm nice to her. I don't talk about them behind their backs - but apparently they say shit about me. I was pretty much friends with both of them before my sister even knew they existed. now that my sister's friends with them, they hate me? ugh. & she's friends with brittany, too. me & britt aren't really close anymore. I'm not mean to her, either, but I've been told by others that she said that I treat her like crap. I would never go out of my way to make anybody feel bad. I don't say anything about her behind her back, if I had something to say to her I'd say it to her face. but britt's telling shaylah stuff that is completely exaggerated, & my sister's taking her side over mine. it hurts even more to know my sister is turning against me. she doesn't even bother hearing what I have to say about anything, she just goes by whatever her little friends say about me. I don't know what they're telling her, but I haven't done shit all to anyone.
me & my sister fight so fucking much now. & it's not even stupid sibling fights anymore. it's turned into fights over friends. it never used to bother me this much, but after three months of it, it's really starting to get to me. well, no, I wouldn't even say it's starting to get to me; it's already gotten to me. I'm so sensitive. I wish I had a thicker skin. I know this all sounds really retarded & pathetic, but it hurts so much.
my sister's birthday party is next weekend. I'm sosososoooo fucking glad me & oscar are going out while they're here. I don't think I'd be able to take sitting around with her little posse ridiculing me for a few hours. I love you oscar. ♥
this post was a lot longer than I intended it to be. despite all of the above, I had a really good day. I just had quite a bit on my mind.