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I had several moments of weakness today.
It started with me thinking about Scott. I don't know why. I just missed him. And I remembered that he had my art nouveau tin so I texted him to ask him if he had it. And I asked how Jubal was. Well, it turns out that Jubal has been lonely, so obviously the logical solution would be to BUY ANOTHER FUCKING CAT instead of do what we agreed on and reunite the cat brothers - with me. If Fitz hadn't been acting out lately I wouldn't have been as upset, but he's been naughty and obviously acting like he needs attention, so that set me off. And apparently he "forgot his phone" somewhere so when I texted him about it he didn't answer, so I said while he's at it he can give me my shelf and half of July's rent (since I paid all of that month).
Well, finally he called me and we had a long conversation in which he: 1) apologized, 2) said it was fucked up I was on Match while I was still living there, even though we had broken up, 3) after me telling him he hadn't exactly been a boyfriend for the last few months, said that I hadn't been a girlfriend either, 4) said he doesn't owe me money because he paid for this and that throughout the relationship, 5) apologized some more, and 6) told me all these things that he's been doing THAT I FUCKING SUGGESTED HE DO while we were together but no I can't reap the benefits of him bettering himself, he has to go and do it all after we've broken up.
I haven't properly gone through my sad breakup phase, so I guess I'm doing it now and fuck it all I can't stop crying because I either think about what he said to me or I think about how Fitz is sad or I think about his stupid new cat for Jubal. I hate my fucking life right now. And I can't fucking save money for the life of me and MY FUCKING INTERNET IS A PIECE OF SHIT
Also, really big sneezes feel orgasmic when you are crying your eyes out and it's still not enough.
It started with me thinking about Scott. I don't know why. I just missed him. And I remembered that he had my art nouveau tin so I texted him to ask him if he had it. And I asked how Jubal was. Well, it turns out that Jubal has been lonely, so obviously the logical solution would be to BUY ANOTHER FUCKING CAT instead of do what we agreed on and reunite the cat brothers - with me. If Fitz hadn't been acting out lately I wouldn't have been as upset, but he's been naughty and obviously acting like he needs attention, so that set me off. And apparently he "forgot his phone" somewhere so when I texted him about it he didn't answer, so I said while he's at it he can give me my shelf and half of July's rent (since I paid all of that month).
Well, finally he called me and we had a long conversation in which he: 1) apologized, 2) said it was fucked up I was on Match while I was still living there, even though we had broken up, 3) after me telling him he hadn't exactly been a boyfriend for the last few months, said that I hadn't been a girlfriend either, 4) said he doesn't owe me money because he paid for this and that throughout the relationship, 5) apologized some more, and 6) told me all these things that he's been doing THAT I FUCKING SUGGESTED HE DO while we were together but no I can't reap the benefits of him bettering himself, he has to go and do it all after we've broken up.
I haven't properly gone through my sad breakup phase, so I guess I'm doing it now and fuck it all I can't stop crying because I either think about what he said to me or I think about how Fitz is sad or I think about his stupid new cat for Jubal. I hate my fucking life right now. And I can't fucking save money for the life of me and MY FUCKING INTERNET IS A PIECE OF SHIT
Also, really big sneezes feel orgasmic when you are crying your eyes out and it's still not enough.