It's been forever and the rants are long and drawn out
Not really but it has been a long time. We don't have the internet at home anymore so my spoiled ass self has to go to the library to check email and write on here.
anyone available this friday night? It's my birthday and I have no one to party with. I'm so sad!!! I work the next day and all but still I want to do SOMETHING! whatever, i have a gluten-free, dairy free, taste-full birthday cake waiting to get made and EATEN!!! I'll eat it all myself and get nice and fat! yumm yumm
I'm less stressed out about the relationship between mark and i. I finally told him how insecure i am and how i think he's going to let me move down to rockford then tell me he doesn't love me anymore and doesn't want to be with me anymore. yes he could have been more loving but i'll live withhim saying that he'd have to be hit in the head quite a few times, fall down some stairs a lot and maybe THEN he'd want to let me go. Yeah you didn't say that you loved me!! So I'll let the insecurity stay but I won't let it be as predominant in my life. i just couldn't let him know how much I've cried this week. I did tell him that i am absolutly miserable. I really did think that i'd be ok with him being gone by now, but i'm not by a long shot. the worst part is i have a small area of my brain that is consumed by thoughts of my friend peter. why?! i shouldn't. but i figure that a guys brain isn't occupied by just the women he's with (and i know because i see all the porn he looks at) and since i won't act on impulse all should be fine. What sucks even more is that i KNOW peter wants kids, 2 of them. Hey thats what i want too!! but i want them soon and i don't even bring that up with mark. but i won't follow your advice james and just stop taking my pills, i'm not going to trap him in something...yet! blah!
Anyways, if you are available to do something Friday night call me!!
anyone available this friday night? It's my birthday and I have no one to party with. I'm so sad!!! I work the next day and all but still I want to do SOMETHING! whatever, i have a gluten-free, dairy free, taste-full birthday cake waiting to get made and EATEN!!! I'll eat it all myself and get nice and fat! yumm yumm
I'm less stressed out about the relationship between mark and i. I finally told him how insecure i am and how i think he's going to let me move down to rockford then tell me he doesn't love me anymore and doesn't want to be with me anymore. yes he could have been more loving but i'll live withhim saying that he'd have to be hit in the head quite a few times, fall down some stairs a lot and maybe THEN he'd want to let me go. Yeah you didn't say that you loved me!! So I'll let the insecurity stay but I won't let it be as predominant in my life. i just couldn't let him know how much I've cried this week. I did tell him that i am absolutly miserable. I really did think that i'd be ok with him being gone by now, but i'm not by a long shot. the worst part is i have a small area of my brain that is consumed by thoughts of my friend peter. why?! i shouldn't. but i figure that a guys brain isn't occupied by just the women he's with (and i know because i see all the porn he looks at) and since i won't act on impulse all should be fine. What sucks even more is that i KNOW peter wants kids, 2 of them. Hey thats what i want too!! but i want them soon and i don't even bring that up with mark. but i won't follow your advice james and just stop taking my pills, i'm not going to trap him in something...yet! blah!
Anyways, if you are available to do something Friday night call me!!