Kind of at a loss for words but wishing that all the thoughts would just go away
i was a spaz last week in regards to all the mark being away from me thing. I guess I'm slowly getting used to it, I have to, there is no other way around it. At least Mark found a nice place to live. The owner will be living in the lower and we'll be in the upper. Apparently the guy wants to meet me as well. I doubt that'll happen before I help get him moved in. I won't get to see mark this weekend, sadly. He can't really come up here and i can't really go down there. So I've picked up at least 7 hours at the YMCA and will be babysitting my not so young neighbors this weekend to fill my time. Love really does make you do crazy things. It makes you endure insanity and heartache, especially when you don't know what the outcome could be.
I want to get together with Peter because I need the body work and I'd like to try someone that I don't work with. And if you pushed me I'd admit it is also for the company. He's usually entertaining and flattering. And I want advise about my massages from someone outside of who I already work on and who knows the shit. I want to talk to someone on the outside, someone who is in a more fun place. I'll latch onto that to give me hope. Hope for what I couldn't tell you. plus he thinks i'm still cute, especially with my new glasses, and i don't mind hearing that from time to time.
I'm super dee-duper excited to get together with Selene this Thursday as well. She seems to be another one of my friends were we can not see or talk to each other for months but then pick up as tho we never were apart. Just like my friend Scott, who I haven't seen in over a year if not 2. But he'll be in milwaukee in february for the NIN show. yippy
I'm up past my bedtime again. The cats are getting fidgety because no one is in bed warming it for them.
I want to get together with Peter because I need the body work and I'd like to try someone that I don't work with. And if you pushed me I'd admit it is also for the company. He's usually entertaining and flattering. And I want advise about my massages from someone outside of who I already work on and who knows the shit. I want to talk to someone on the outside, someone who is in a more fun place. I'll latch onto that to give me hope. Hope for what I couldn't tell you. plus he thinks i'm still cute, especially with my new glasses, and i don't mind hearing that from time to time.
I'm super dee-duper excited to get together with Selene this Thursday as well. She seems to be another one of my friends were we can not see or talk to each other for months but then pick up as tho we never were apart. Just like my friend Scott, who I haven't seen in over a year if not 2. But he'll be in milwaukee in february for the NIN show. yippy
I'm up past my bedtime again. The cats are getting fidgety because no one is in bed warming it for them.