Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster
Rob wants time to get his life in order, so I happily obliged. I actually had a smile on my face, what the fuck?! It was all done over the phone (don't get me started) at 11pm ish. As soon as he said those words my confusion, frustration, anger and other assorted emotions gave way to happiness and a sense of freedom. I've never found relationships to be confining but I guess I wasn't ready for what we had. I don't know if we'll ever get back together but right now it doesn't really matter to me. I feel like my life is waiting for me. It's a strange feeling and it's hard to describe how it feels, how my mind's eye sees it. But it's beautiful.
Is it wrong that I've kissed 3 of my favorite men in the last 72 hours? Peter's excited that I'm unattached, at least this time should be different. I know more about the both of us than I have before and can keep it professional...in a sense. Todd was happy to have someone with him for his birthday...his 38th. Haha I do love me the older men...shiiiit! Haha oh yes, Peter just turned 28(he's the youngest of the 3). But PJ, 30, is where I'm at risk. I've been attracted to him since I met him. He lives in Rockford, IL which is a bit of a problem. But since nothing is serious, ever, I'm content to let whatever is going to happen, happen. I want nothing to do with commitment right now. I'm fucking rambling. It's been a long weekend. I had a fucking GREAT time in Rockford Friday night. I wore and angel outfit, kind of, to the Response's show at the ELB. We all had a great time. Then I went to Mary's Place to see The Moment play. It was fucking awesome too. A lot of people were dancing and drinking and having fun. I got to meet Chris the drummer from Amazing Transparent Man (a band I loved back when I was 18, Chris even remembered the Milwaukee show I saw them at) who, it turns out, has been friends with PJ for 9 years. Chris tried to get me to come back to Rockford Saturday night too but there was no way I was driving another 200 miles round trip. Since I was a fan of the rum and cokes I stayed the night there and had to wake up at 6:15am to drive back to Milwaukee so I could work my 3 hour lifeguarding shift. I'm taking it easy this week, but may be going to Madison to see the Moment play a show this Wed. night.
hell, I need to go to bed...
Is it wrong that I've kissed 3 of my favorite men in the last 72 hours? Peter's excited that I'm unattached, at least this time should be different. I know more about the both of us than I have before and can keep it professional...in a sense. Todd was happy to have someone with him for his birthday...his 38th. Haha I do love me the older men...shiiiit! Haha oh yes, Peter just turned 28(he's the youngest of the 3). But PJ, 30, is where I'm at risk. I've been attracted to him since I met him. He lives in Rockford, IL which is a bit of a problem. But since nothing is serious, ever, I'm content to let whatever is going to happen, happen. I want nothing to do with commitment right now. I'm fucking rambling. It's been a long weekend. I had a fucking GREAT time in Rockford Friday night. I wore and angel outfit, kind of, to the Response's show at the ELB. We all had a great time. Then I went to Mary's Place to see The Moment play. It was fucking awesome too. A lot of people were dancing and drinking and having fun. I got to meet Chris the drummer from Amazing Transparent Man (a band I loved back when I was 18, Chris even remembered the Milwaukee show I saw them at) who, it turns out, has been friends with PJ for 9 years. Chris tried to get me to come back to Rockford Saturday night too but there was no way I was driving another 200 miles round trip. Since I was a fan of the rum and cokes I stayed the night there and had to wake up at 6:15am to drive back to Milwaukee so I could work my 3 hour lifeguarding shift. I'm taking it easy this week, but may be going to Madison to see the Moment play a show this Wed. night.
hell, I need to go to bed...