I know its hurting you, but its killing me.

[opticl_illusion]

i've been having a emotional/mental battle with myself lately.
i've always been one to follow my instinct
(i'm a scorpio, i'm lead by my emotions more than anything)
but lately, it feels like those emotions have taken over me & my logic is  completely out of the window.
& i don't know how much more of this i can take.
i'm coming to a breaking point, i mean, i can only bend so far, right?

i know what i have to do.
& its going to be the hardest thing ever.
because i know it will be a lie.
it might even kill me in the process. (emotionally).
but i can't be second best.
i'm better than that.

this will be my first regret.