quitters sometimes win
Today I did something I have never done before and never thought I would do. I dropped a class.
There is just too much life going on these days. Too much life and not enough time and, well...to be honest...this class was not a priority at this time.
It was Digital Multimedia, and it's actually a second year course, but for some reason it was listed in the crossover curriculum as something to take this first semester, so I did. But my schedule is just so blankety-blank awkward. There are gaping spans of down time when it's too soon to go there and too late to stay here and I can't seem to make best use of that time because the software I need for projects is always somewhere else.
On the upside, I'm getting a lot of math done because that is one low-tech class. I'm still using the calculator my dad got me in 1981. I'm should take a photo, and I will if I can get the integrated camera on my beater laptop to work. (I should make a cheat sheet. The camera on this old gal stops working at every shutdown and I use it so seldom I can never remember how I got it going again the last time.)
Anyway, this semester is not working out the way I'd like, but I have fought tooth and claw against the idea of dropping a class, and then I wrestled with the concept of dropping the most important class. Wouldn't it make more sense to drop an annoyance class? (Like, say....math?)
I concluded that it wouldn't make more sense. For one thing, in the future I plan to drop to half-time status, and at that point I would be able to dedicate more time and attention to whatever classes I'm enrolled in. It seems like it would be better to dedicate more time and attention to the important stuff, i.e., not how to calculate discount rates.
Also if I have to do assignments twice, do I really want it to be the discount rates test? Or would it be better to review the use of industry standard software? I'm thinking it's the software.
And dropping the big class allows me to stay in four other classes, so dropping it is really the most efficient use of a drop.
I convinced myself, and my instructor agrees and was very supportive when I explained why I wanted to drop.
Yet, the inner saboteur is assuring me that quitters never win. Shut up, turkey. Not everything is all or nothing, and sometimes it's necessary to quit a little so you don't have to quit a lot. Where you = me.
Maybe letting go is something I needed to learn off-label. Or maybe I'm just telling myself that because, although I'm exhausted, for the first time in weeks I can breathe.
There is just too much life going on these days. Too much life and not enough time and, well...to be honest...this class was not a priority at this time.
It was Digital Multimedia, and it's actually a second year course, but for some reason it was listed in the crossover curriculum as something to take this first semester, so I did. But my schedule is just so blankety-blank awkward. There are gaping spans of down time when it's too soon to go there and too late to stay here and I can't seem to make best use of that time because the software I need for projects is always somewhere else.
On the upside, I'm getting a lot of math done because that is one low-tech class. I'm still using the calculator my dad got me in 1981. I'm should take a photo, and I will if I can get the integrated camera on my beater laptop to work. (I should make a cheat sheet. The camera on this old gal stops working at every shutdown and I use it so seldom I can never remember how I got it going again the last time.)
Anyway, this semester is not working out the way I'd like, but I have fought tooth and claw against the idea of dropping a class, and then I wrestled with the concept of dropping the most important class. Wouldn't it make more sense to drop an annoyance class? (Like, say....math?)
I concluded that it wouldn't make more sense. For one thing, in the future I plan to drop to half-time status, and at that point I would be able to dedicate more time and attention to whatever classes I'm enrolled in. It seems like it would be better to dedicate more time and attention to the important stuff, i.e., not how to calculate discount rates.
Also if I have to do assignments twice, do I really want it to be the discount rates test? Or would it be better to review the use of industry standard software? I'm thinking it's the software.
And dropping the big class allows me to stay in four other classes, so dropping it is really the most efficient use of a drop.
I convinced myself, and my instructor agrees and was very supportive when I explained why I wanted to drop.
Yet, the inner saboteur is assuring me that quitters never win. Shut up, turkey. Not everything is all or nothing, and sometimes it's necessary to quit a little so you don't have to quit a lot. Where you = me.
Maybe letting go is something I needed to learn off-label. Or maybe I'm just telling myself that because, although I'm exhausted, for the first time in weeks I can breathe.