Nov 25, 2003 22:18
Yeah, so I'm still questioning why I'm not as loud and outgoing as I used to be. WTF@this bipolar shit. Fucking christ, I just wish I can be happy. I never gave a fuck what people thought in the past, why do I give one now?
Cheeyah, so I decided not to get a lettermans jacket. I want one though...but ah, I'll live without it, I guess.
Hmmm, I had internet withdrawels today. This was due to my mother hiding to keyboard in the laundry room. WTF, YOU SILLY CUNT. Seriously, my mom is fucking psycho. It seems like she's going through menapause. The other day we got into one of our fights and she threw four glasses against the wall by me and she held up a bigass frying pan that she uses when she makes fried rice to sell. HAHAHAA. WTF@THAT! I said to her, "if you ever hit me, i'll fuck kill you." Yeah, seriously...I'm really scared I'm going to kill her one day. I have bad bad bad anger problems. Today she was nice for some odd reason, she must have had a quickie with Thomas or something. [laughs]
K, I reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelly hate my school. I hate it due to the moronic/self-absorbed/ass-kissing kids. DEAR FUCKING JESUS, WHY DO YOU KIDS FEEL A NEED TO ACT A CERTAIN WAY OR DRESS A WAY TO GAIN POPULARITY?! Really, I try my hardest to be nice but when I see my own goddamn friends sell-out, it's just lame. For christsakes, it's Butterizzle! We're a small school as it is, you are popular if you're not in special ed. HAH! I don't know. I've lost interests in friendships. I really just don't know. I'm sick of everything. Is it me, or is the fucking SCHOOL BOARD A BUNCH OF FUCKING IDIOTS. k.
So yeah, I really hate working although it's not THAT bad. Bah, my coworkers are really funny. So yeah, there's this cute guy named Jareth that reminds me of Jason but he's blond. Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I feel like a pedophile because he's 15. I don't like him though. I want a boyfriend. [lonelyface]. Yeah, ... So there's this funny kid named Matthew Farber, he's cool.
I'm getting sick of seeing these social workers, therapists, counselors, and whatnots. Goddamnit. I get tested for add/adhd on the 2nd of December. Teheheh.
Tits&Ass w/ much love,
Lanna