it's friday
i feel decent right now. from my observations, i realized today how many idiots we have in our school. most of them are my friends but dear christ, it gets old when you cant discuss something like abortion or religion without their ass getting upset. i skipped lunch today and went in the forums instead. what a good diet! itll be awesome when i weigh at least 110 lbs. im really peaceful right now actually, i think its because its just my brother and i. that kid is so naive and brilliant. hes going to make me really proud some day, i know it. as you could tell in my last post, i was incredibly depressed. i started feeling better when a friend of mine was talking to me. i think he's a friend anyways. it was really interesting to see where he was coming from. i felt better when he started talking about farting ...but then i started crying again. ugh. yeah, thanks.
theres a girls basketball game tonight so that means lanna has to play pepband or show up for it. fucking a, i know how to play the songs on the bass drum but its like...i dont want to make a big deal when the fucking freshmans take it from me. itd be nice to play but since im the only girl ..[le sigh] i havent really played this year. the director is making me play the mallets for one of our concert songs. i bet id be better if i would show up for my lessons. goddamn, i suck at percussion. i dont know, i just get nervous that ill fuck up really bad. well i do suck at it though. haha. yeah, when i was in mtl. veochai and i played with their pepband on the bass drums in my cheerleading outfit. bla bla i know but you dont exactly need a lot of intellect to play the beats. the kids took the sticks back though because we were too loud i guess. wtf@that. BUTTERS IS LOUD, YO. WE'RE HARDCORE PEPBAND FO' LYFE. yeah, their percussion people suck ass though. anyways, since we have a game tonight i'll probably end up staying out a little later which means i wont have to talk to my mom. thea asked me if i wanted to go with her to hang out or something....because bryan is going to windom on saturday and i asked thea im like what are you doing ...what? she was like, well theres matt. ;). so this leads me to talking about guys....
guys
i dont like anyone. i dont feel like getting into a relationship. i just want some guy bestfriends. if i were to like a guy, id probably like someone who had a girlfriend already since hes untouchable or someone who liked another person, ya know? eh, that sounds like too much work for me even. although im generalizing but from what ive seen guys arent so dramatic, but then again i only know guys from central/south minnesota. why the hell am i talking about guys?
i need a fucking job. fucking money...you cant buy burritos without money. you cant get to places without money. FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING MONEY.
im not going to feel shitty tonight. im not. if i do, i owe you all an asshole nude.
choking victim - in hell, this song is fucking $$$.
theres a girls basketball game tonight so that means lanna has to play pepband or show up for it. fucking a, i know how to play the songs on the bass drum but its like...i dont want to make a big deal when the fucking freshmans take it from me. itd be nice to play but since im the only girl ..[le sigh] i havent really played this year. the director is making me play the mallets for one of our concert songs. i bet id be better if i would show up for my lessons. goddamn, i suck at percussion. i dont know, i just get nervous that ill fuck up really bad. well i do suck at it though. haha. yeah, when i was in mtl. veochai and i played with their pepband on the bass drums in my cheerleading outfit. bla bla i know but you dont exactly need a lot of intellect to play the beats. the kids took the sticks back though because we were too loud i guess. wtf@that. BUTTERS IS LOUD, YO. WE'RE HARDCORE PEPBAND FO' LYFE. yeah, their percussion people suck ass though. anyways, since we have a game tonight i'll probably end up staying out a little later which means i wont have to talk to my mom. thea asked me if i wanted to go with her to hang out or something....because bryan is going to windom on saturday and i asked thea im like what are you doing ...what? she was like, well theres matt. ;). so this leads me to talking about guys....
guys
i dont like anyone. i dont feel like getting into a relationship. i just want some guy bestfriends. if i were to like a guy, id probably like someone who had a girlfriend already since hes untouchable or someone who liked another person, ya know? eh, that sounds like too much work for me even. although im generalizing but from what ive seen guys arent so dramatic, but then again i only know guys from central/south minnesota. why the hell am i talking about guys?
i need a fucking job. fucking money...you cant buy burritos without money. you cant get to places without money. FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING MONEY.
im not going to feel shitty tonight. im not. if i do, i owe you all an asshole nude.
choking victim - in hell, this song is fucking $$$.