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I haven't been able to go to River and give her any of my regeneration energy for days. Oh, the Tardis is taking care of her as far as feeding and all of the silly human things that are needed, but she needs my energy to get better and I just haven't been able to move. When I rescued her from that horrid planet, we both took the damage from her foolish rescue attempt. She got all of the physical damage, burns mostly. They're easy enough to heal, with time, but very painful. And I'm afraid I'm too selfish to just let her regenerate into someone else. Someone I might not love. Someone who might not love me. And I think she does love me. She probably would have told me outright if I hadn't started that stupid fight. But maybe not. She's not one of those stupidly sentimental humans.
As I said, she took the physical damage, but I took the mental assault into my own head. She is still part human. I couldn't take the chance that she wouldn't survive it. On the positive side, it's done what countless regenerations were never able to do. The drums are gone. Unfortunately, it's also destroyed my equilibrium. The room won't stop spinning and I'm horribly ill every time I try to move.
It's getting better though. Slowly. I've got to try to push past it soon and go to River and help her some more. I know what hell it can be when you think you're all alone.
As I said, she took the physical damage, but I took the mental assault into my own head. She is still part human. I couldn't take the chance that she wouldn't survive it. On the positive side, it's done what countless regenerations were never able to do. The drums are gone. Unfortunately, it's also destroyed my equilibrium. The room won't stop spinning and I'm horribly ill every time I try to move.
It's getting better though. Slowly. I've got to try to push past it soon and go to River and help her some more. I know what hell it can be when you think you're all alone.