LJ Idol: Bowing Out
Over the holidays, I finally got to take a breather from the Fall semester and reevaluate what's really important to me. I've been struggling with anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember, but recently it's been worse than it's ever been. It has pushed me to step back from a lot of things - take it easy and try to regroup so that I can jump back into the things about which I'm passionate.
My first priority, it turns out, is going to be focusing on school and maintaining my GPA, despite a couple of bad semesters (or bad classes/ professors that ruined those semesters for me and my GPA).
My second is going to be writing a little bit every day, yes, but for my own projects. I feel that the LJ Idol is great for people looking to challenge themselves, but I am still in recovery mode, trying desperately to regain the willpower necessary to fight that little voice in my head that tells me everything I write, sing, or portray on stage is shit, worthless, not artistically valid.
So I decided to give up on LJ idol. I'm not certain what I'll end up using this LJ page for, ultimately, but it's worth holding onto just to find out what could come from it.
Thanks to everyone who supported me by reading my entries, commenting, and voting for me! I greatly appreciate your time and energy. I'm wish I could have struggled forward long enough to be more worthy of it, but I still greatly appreciate you all. I wish everyone still involved in LJ Idol the best of luck, though! I hope you all have lots of fun and get what you were hoping from it. Even though it's not for me to finish this year, it seems like a great collection of interesting, fun, and supportive writers, and I hope to see you all around LJ when you're done chasing the title of LJ Idol. ^-^
My first priority, it turns out, is going to be focusing on school and maintaining my GPA, despite a couple of bad semesters (or bad classes/ professors that ruined those semesters for me and my GPA).
My second is going to be writing a little bit every day, yes, but for my own projects. I feel that the LJ Idol is great for people looking to challenge themselves, but I am still in recovery mode, trying desperately to regain the willpower necessary to fight that little voice in my head that tells me everything I write, sing, or portray on stage is shit, worthless, not artistically valid.
So I decided to give up on LJ idol. I'm not certain what I'll end up using this LJ page for, ultimately, but it's worth holding onto just to find out what could come from it.
Thanks to everyone who supported me by reading my entries, commenting, and voting for me! I greatly appreciate your time and energy. I'm wish I could have struggled forward long enough to be more worthy of it, but I still greatly appreciate you all. I wish everyone still involved in LJ Idol the best of luck, though! I hope you all have lots of fun and get what you were hoping from it. Even though it's not for me to finish this year, it seems like a great collection of interesting, fun, and supportive writers, and I hope to see you all around LJ when you're done chasing the title of LJ Idol. ^-^