The Year in Review - 2004
Wow. LoL. Like most people, I've fallen out of livejournal.com and dedicated most of my on-line access to myspace.com, lol. This year has definetly been a growing period of curiosity. It has been an interesting year full of changes.
At the beginning of the year, I found a "home" at Cal State Fullerton which changed my life. New Student Programs, where I formerly held the position as a New Student Orientation Leader and currently an Information Specialist, allowed me to seek inner strength that I already had and to apply it. Going to the NSP retreat changed my life forever. I got to know people in 3 days very well then some of my friends in the years I've known them.
Also during that time, I distanced myself from one of my really good friends, Renee. I thought some of my negative vibes were created WITH--not by--her. No, we didn't do drugs, we didn't get drunk all time.. we weren't even deviant kids. The year as a whole, my closeness with her has been slowly eaten away. It's sad... it is so sad. She's probably the person who knows most of me, and she's the person I spent most of my time with. This year has been a huge switch for us. Where we once called each other multiple times everyday then to now occassionally calling each other with literally nothing to say is so different. Renee has a beautiful soul and a very, very caring nature... I think this wound between us was cut waaay to deep and shouldn't have been opened. We should've been able to work it out at the very, very beginning.. whatever it was... Later on, I started to question my friendships with other people. I also started to confront them. Like Michael. I told him that I didn't appreciate his unloyalty and such. He admitted to me that he hasn't been a good friend but didn't change. I honestly believe that I have nothing to do with that habit of his. People have told me that that he does that to them. Sometimes, I even there with Michael when he does that to them. I honestly believe that Michael is one of the most awesomest (hehe, really a word?) people I've ever known, he is a reflection of me when it comes to humour. But it very sad that his flaw corrupts his character. And that flaw is one that I personally can't tolerate. Sad to say... I never confronted this person, but I have to admit Juli was one of those people to. I met Juli my freshman year of high school at Mater Dei. After I left that school, I kind of rekindled with Juli at a random basis one summer. We grew an incredible, strong friendship and I have to honestly admit that close friendship slowly started to die out in 2004. Personal opinion, I think it came to other friends... I think she found a more consistant group of people she could easily connect with than me. Although, I would still do anything for Juli. She is one of the most unique people I know, and in her defense, this girl is not your typical blue-eyed, blonde-haired, Mustang-driving girl from Yorba Linda. Stephen has honestly helped me get thru 96.4987% of 2004. We had Spring 2004 and Fall 2004 classes with each other back to back, EVERY class. You can imagine the closeness that grew between us. I am so glad that I can introduce a person like Stephen to my other friends from NSP, work, etc. because he is very one-of-a-kind. I am scared for our friendship though in the future. Seriously, I am.. I have to admit that our relationship grew because our tendencies in the classroom. Now that we don't have EVERY class with each other and his current relationship with his (very awesome)boyfriend, I'm afraid that we won't spend time with each other that much.. outside school. I know the timing, now is going to be different now, but that's just how life goes...
I made incredible friendships, ofcourse, and distanced myself away other ones. I'm glad I went thru this. It made me realize who was important to me and to recollect the memories I had with each friend. It also gave me a chance to be more upfront and to challange myself in what I want. Do I deserve the least? No!
School was a ride in Spring of 2004. I took the most units I've ever took before in my entire life. And I hated 90% of my classes. They were, for the most part, GE courses.. ofcourse I hated them. I went to school on Tuesdays and Thursdays with my NSO meetings on Wednesday. Not to mention, I also worked.
Work, speaking of.. I still worked at Carlton Cards and during the upper half of the year, I earned a management promotion. But honestly, working at that place got old, and I knew that the previous year. I think most of it came with the ingenuinity of my co-workers. Well anyway, I was determined to keep my the job and face ahead the demands and adventures of.. NSO.
NSO ruled the majority of my summer. It was an awesome (and tiring!) experience. My "co-workers" were great people to work with, and I didn't even consider NSO a job. The hours were very demanding but very rewarding. I had spend half a year preparing for it, and to actually be in action was such a great high. Much love and thanks to most genuine people I've ever met on campus: Connie, Siti, Evelyn, Kevin, Lea, Larry, and Karen. Undying support, thank you to: Carol, Peggy, Nancy, and Lorraine. After NSO was over, I felt a certain part of life needed to be let go... my job at Carlton.
For some reason, it was partially easy for me to put my two weeks notice, but I was afraid. I had to write down the reasons of why I wanted to leave so I can tell them to my boss (who isn't a very bossy boss, which made it very hard to leave) without cracking, which I almost did. I got teary-eyed. She was in shock, ofcourse. But I felt like it was the best thing for me. After my leave, I grasped a job with NSP which I still hold a position there today as an Information Specialist.
Wow! What a lift off my shoulders! But what a huuuuge difference in pay! At Carlton, I got direct deposit every week into my account. My hours were flexible and different every week, which I liked. As an IS, my hours are the same every week, and I got paid once a month which sucked!
Balancing IS and school during the Fall of 2004 was easy. Sooo easy. But I realized that I had more time on my hands. Most of it went to a.) being lazy on the weekends because I can't remember a time where I virtually had EVERY weekened off b.) boys c.) going out. d.) boys. e.) other obligations. During my time at school, I took some Communications classes, which is one of my majors. I liked some of it (the class that is), but what I will always remember are a few people that I met: Amber, Eddie, and Jenni. Genuine people.. that's all I can say. Obviously, I consider myself one because that's what I crave to be around by. Amber is an awesome person and she invited me to her Halloween Party which was one hell of a party! Eddie is 26 years old and doesn't look that age. Jenni knows Michael thru Disney and is a total sweetheart.
Ever since the end of summer, I contemplated on getting another job. In July/August, I had an interview with Disney even though they didn't have any openings in the area I wanted which was Entertainment Costuming. The recruiter adored me and said she would put me on the "keep" file, LoL. Since I was so busy at the time with NSO anyway, I put any job opportunities aside. Later on during the semester, I called back a couple of times for any openings, and towards the middle of the semester, I wanted to get a job. The recruiter set me up with a particular department, not the one I wanted though, and alas my new job with Disney was born. Working for Disney is very... different. I know most companies are like this, but sometimes they don't tell you things that they think you wouldn't expect. Disney is definetly one of those companies which is sometimes a bad thing.
Where am I now? January 2, 2005... that's where I am.. sitting in the office at home, using the new computer that my parents just bought today, uploading songs to my 60GB photo iPod that just got erased. ((sigh))
What does the future have for me? Why do things happen the way they do? postive and negative...
Wow, this was very nutshellish.. thank goodness!
At the beginning of the year, I found a "home" at Cal State Fullerton which changed my life. New Student Programs, where I formerly held the position as a New Student Orientation Leader and currently an Information Specialist, allowed me to seek inner strength that I already had and to apply it. Going to the NSP retreat changed my life forever. I got to know people in 3 days very well then some of my friends in the years I've known them.
Also during that time, I distanced myself from one of my really good friends, Renee. I thought some of my negative vibes were created WITH--not by--her. No, we didn't do drugs, we didn't get drunk all time.. we weren't even deviant kids. The year as a whole, my closeness with her has been slowly eaten away. It's sad... it is so sad. She's probably the person who knows most of me, and she's the person I spent most of my time with. This year has been a huge switch for us. Where we once called each other multiple times everyday then to now occassionally calling each other with literally nothing to say is so different. Renee has a beautiful soul and a very, very caring nature... I think this wound between us was cut waaay to deep and shouldn't have been opened. We should've been able to work it out at the very, very beginning.. whatever it was... Later on, I started to question my friendships with other people. I also started to confront them. Like Michael. I told him that I didn't appreciate his unloyalty and such. He admitted to me that he hasn't been a good friend but didn't change. I honestly believe that I have nothing to do with that habit of his. People have told me that that he does that to them. Sometimes, I even there with Michael when he does that to them. I honestly believe that Michael is one of the most awesomest (hehe, really a word?) people I've ever known, he is a reflection of me when it comes to humour. But it very sad that his flaw corrupts his character. And that flaw is one that I personally can't tolerate. Sad to say... I never confronted this person, but I have to admit Juli was one of those people to. I met Juli my freshman year of high school at Mater Dei. After I left that school, I kind of rekindled with Juli at a random basis one summer. We grew an incredible, strong friendship and I have to honestly admit that close friendship slowly started to die out in 2004. Personal opinion, I think it came to other friends... I think she found a more consistant group of people she could easily connect with than me. Although, I would still do anything for Juli. She is one of the most unique people I know, and in her defense, this girl is not your typical blue-eyed, blonde-haired, Mustang-driving girl from Yorba Linda. Stephen has honestly helped me get thru 96.4987% of 2004. We had Spring 2004 and Fall 2004 classes with each other back to back, EVERY class. You can imagine the closeness that grew between us. I am so glad that I can introduce a person like Stephen to my other friends from NSP, work, etc. because he is very one-of-a-kind. I am scared for our friendship though in the future. Seriously, I am.. I have to admit that our relationship grew because our tendencies in the classroom. Now that we don't have EVERY class with each other and his current relationship with his (very awesome)boyfriend, I'm afraid that we won't spend time with each other that much.. outside school. I know the timing, now is going to be different now, but that's just how life goes...
I made incredible friendships, ofcourse, and distanced myself away other ones. I'm glad I went thru this. It made me realize who was important to me and to recollect the memories I had with each friend. It also gave me a chance to be more upfront and to challange myself in what I want. Do I deserve the least? No!
School was a ride in Spring of 2004. I took the most units I've ever took before in my entire life. And I hated 90% of my classes. They were, for the most part, GE courses.. ofcourse I hated them. I went to school on Tuesdays and Thursdays with my NSO meetings on Wednesday. Not to mention, I also worked.
Work, speaking of.. I still worked at Carlton Cards and during the upper half of the year, I earned a management promotion. But honestly, working at that place got old, and I knew that the previous year. I think most of it came with the ingenuinity of my co-workers. Well anyway, I was determined to keep my the job and face ahead the demands and adventures of.. NSO.
NSO ruled the majority of my summer. It was an awesome (and tiring!) experience. My "co-workers" were great people to work with, and I didn't even consider NSO a job. The hours were very demanding but very rewarding. I had spend half a year preparing for it, and to actually be in action was such a great high. Much love and thanks to most genuine people I've ever met on campus: Connie, Siti, Evelyn, Kevin, Lea, Larry, and Karen. Undying support, thank you to: Carol, Peggy, Nancy, and Lorraine. After NSO was over, I felt a certain part of life needed to be let go... my job at Carlton.
For some reason, it was partially easy for me to put my two weeks notice, but I was afraid. I had to write down the reasons of why I wanted to leave so I can tell them to my boss (who isn't a very bossy boss, which made it very hard to leave) without cracking, which I almost did. I got teary-eyed. She was in shock, ofcourse. But I felt like it was the best thing for me. After my leave, I grasped a job with NSP which I still hold a position there today as an Information Specialist.
Wow! What a lift off my shoulders! But what a huuuuge difference in pay! At Carlton, I got direct deposit every week into my account. My hours were flexible and different every week, which I liked. As an IS, my hours are the same every week, and I got paid once a month which sucked!
Balancing IS and school during the Fall of 2004 was easy. Sooo easy. But I realized that I had more time on my hands. Most of it went to a.) being lazy on the weekends because I can't remember a time where I virtually had EVERY weekened off b.) boys c.) going out. d.) boys. e.) other obligations. During my time at school, I took some Communications classes, which is one of my majors. I liked some of it (the class that is), but what I will always remember are a few people that I met: Amber, Eddie, and Jenni. Genuine people.. that's all I can say. Obviously, I consider myself one because that's what I crave to be around by. Amber is an awesome person and she invited me to her Halloween Party which was one hell of a party! Eddie is 26 years old and doesn't look that age. Jenni knows Michael thru Disney and is a total sweetheart.
Ever since the end of summer, I contemplated on getting another job. In July/August, I had an interview with Disney even though they didn't have any openings in the area I wanted which was Entertainment Costuming. The recruiter adored me and said she would put me on the "keep" file, LoL. Since I was so busy at the time with NSO anyway, I put any job opportunities aside. Later on during the semester, I called back a couple of times for any openings, and towards the middle of the semester, I wanted to get a job. The recruiter set me up with a particular department, not the one I wanted though, and alas my new job with Disney was born. Working for Disney is very... different. I know most companies are like this, but sometimes they don't tell you things that they think you wouldn't expect. Disney is definetly one of those companies which is sometimes a bad thing.
Where am I now? January 2, 2005... that's where I am.. sitting in the office at home, using the new computer that my parents just bought today, uploading songs to my 60GB photo iPod that just got erased. ((sigh))
What does the future have for me? Why do things happen the way they do? postive and negative...
Wow, this was very nutshellish.. thank goodness!