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a talk with a friend tonight.... I guess....
LinZAAAY (12:59:49 AM): how are ya
Baker5112 (12:59:59 AM): good
Baker5112 (1:00:09 AM): how about you
LinZAAAY (1:00:11 AM): eh
LinZAAAY (1:00:19 AM): im alive. so i guess.. that will have to do
Baker5112 (1:00:48 AM): whats wrong
LinZAAAY (1:01:09 AM): just wishin things would have been different in certain aspects of my life
Baker5112 (1:02:20 AM): like what
LinZAAAY (1:02:43 AM): my ex. the drugs.
Baker5112 (1:03:00 AM): your drugs or his drugs?
LinZAAAY (1:03:14 AM): mine
Baker5112 (1:03:39 AM): i didnt know you did that stuff
Baker5112 (1:03:43 AM): what kind of drugs?
LinZAAAY (1:04:09 AM): i havent in almost a year... but i did speed pretty bad and coke and GHB and XTC
LinZAAAY (1:05:15 AM): and in all truth.. i should have stopped talking to and seeing my ex last august when we broke up cuz i think its harder now to let him go.
Baker5112 (1:05:35 AM): is this ex the guy youve been talkin about lately?
LinZAAAY (1:05:56 AM): yeah thats the one
Baker5112 (1:06:09 AM): ohh
LinZAAAY (1:06:16 AM): we were together for 2 years
LinZAAAY (1:06:19 AM): and broke up
LinZAAAY (1:06:34 AM): and hes just always kinda been there since then even tho ive dated a few other guys...
Baker5112 (1:06:47 AM): yea
LinZAAAY (1:07:07 AM): and now i wish... i could just erase him from my life
LinZAAAY (1:07:14 AM): im just ready to close that chapter of my life
Baker5112 (1:07:29 AM): have you told him this
LinZAAAY (1:07:39 AM): i tell him all the time... and he tells me i dont mean it
Baker5112 (1:08:40 AM): sit him down and have a serious talk with him and tell him you really mean it and if he says you dont just get up and walk out and dont talk to him, and he cant get mad cuz you told him it was his choice not to believe it tho
LinZAAAY (1:08:51 AM): i dont want to see him tho
LinZAAAY (1:09:01 AM): cuz i wont say everything i need to say
LinZAAAY (1:09:04 AM): id rather just not talk to him
LinZAAAY (1:09:22 AM): id rather him just not call me. im not good at not answering after i tell him not to call
LinZAAAY (1:10:20 AM): i just dont see how i can ever move on with stuff and find someone that makes me happy with him around. i mean hes an ex for a reason. something went wrong somewhere
Baker5112 (1:10:33 AM): exactly
LinZAAAY (1:11:00 AM): grrr
Baker5112 (1:11:25 AM): find something that pisses you off about him
Baker5112 (1:11:29 AM): there has to be something
LinZAAAY (1:11:33 AM): theres a list
Baker5112 (1:11:38 AM): exactly
LinZAAAY (1:11:38 AM): and its long
Baker5112 (1:11:44 AM): so just think about the bad things about him
Baker5112 (1:11:55 AM): it wont take long to get over him if u just think of the things you hate
LinZAAAY (1:12:07 AM): i wish hed move away
LinZAAAY (1:12:24 AM): or stop calling. god damn
Baker5112 (1:12:41 AM): just dont answer
LinZAAAY (1:12:48 AM): its hard.
LinZAAAY (1:12:56 AM): cuz he usually calls when im missin him
Baker5112 (1:12:56 AM): yea well it wont be easy
LinZAAAY (1:13:09 AM): just when i think hes not gonna call. he does
Baker5112 (1:13:24 AM): go out and find someone and then if you spend time with them youll get over him seriously
Baker5112 (1:13:35 AM): if you sit at home and think about how to get over him and shit thats not gonna help anything
LinZAAAY (1:13:59 AM): i met a guy a few months ago.. and were startin to hang out and talk more.. but hes outta town this weekend
LinZAAAY (1:14:03 AM): and im sad RIGHT NOW
LinZAAAY (1:14:17 AM): it all started earlier tonight
LinZAAAY (1:14:23 AM): about something TOTALLY different than my ex
Baker5112 (1:14:34 AM): what happened
LinZAAAY (1:15:19 AM): i was driving down brown trail and passed my old house. and i thought about meeting this guy in front of my house... and after we were friends for a while.. he raped me
LinZAAAY (1:15:35 AM): then it made me think of sam and the shitty things hes said to me. and hows he acted.
LinZAAAY (1:15:48 AM): and it just made me think about how i wasted all that time caring about someone that didnt deserve it
Baker5112 (1:16:26 AM): thats horrible
Baker5112 (1:16:27 AM): im sorry
Baker5112 (1:16:37 AM): see guys like that arent worth it youre right
LinZAAAY (1:16:43 AM): it seriously ruined my night
LinZAAAY (1:16:50 AM): sam used to tell me i deserved getting raped
Baker5112 (1:17:01 AM): well hes a dumbass
LinZAAAY (1:17:11 AM): yeah i know.
Baker5112 (1:18:17 AM): i hope you didnt listen to that shit
LinZAAAY (1:18:20 AM): i didnt.
LinZAAAY (1:18:40 AM): i know i didnt deserve it... but it didnt make it any easier on me. because i wonder if my life would have been different
LinZAAAY (1:20:00 AM): it really fucked up my view of guys
Baker5112 (1:20:41 AM): you shouldnt let one stupid ass guy change your view of anything
Baker5112 (1:20:44 AM): especially your life
LinZAAAY (1:21:07 AM): it changed my life tho... i mean how can you expect to be able to trust guys again when all the ones you trustred hurt you
Baker5112 (1:21:17 AM): guys are assholes
Baker5112 (1:21:23 AM): lol seriously
Baker5112 (1:21:32 AM): but some guys are less than others
LinZAAAY (1:23:23 AM): yeah i know... i just havent found any worth a damn
LinZAAAY (12:59:49 AM): how are ya
Baker5112 (12:59:59 AM): good
Baker5112 (1:00:09 AM): how about you
LinZAAAY (1:00:11 AM): eh
LinZAAAY (1:00:19 AM): im alive. so i guess.. that will have to do
Baker5112 (1:00:48 AM): whats wrong
LinZAAAY (1:01:09 AM): just wishin things would have been different in certain aspects of my life
Baker5112 (1:02:20 AM): like what
LinZAAAY (1:02:43 AM): my ex. the drugs.
Baker5112 (1:03:00 AM): your drugs or his drugs?
LinZAAAY (1:03:14 AM): mine
Baker5112 (1:03:39 AM): i didnt know you did that stuff
Baker5112 (1:03:43 AM): what kind of drugs?
LinZAAAY (1:04:09 AM): i havent in almost a year... but i did speed pretty bad and coke and GHB and XTC
LinZAAAY (1:05:15 AM): and in all truth.. i should have stopped talking to and seeing my ex last august when we broke up cuz i think its harder now to let him go.
Baker5112 (1:05:35 AM): is this ex the guy youve been talkin about lately?
LinZAAAY (1:05:56 AM): yeah thats the one
Baker5112 (1:06:09 AM): ohh
LinZAAAY (1:06:16 AM): we were together for 2 years
LinZAAAY (1:06:19 AM): and broke up
LinZAAAY (1:06:34 AM): and hes just always kinda been there since then even tho ive dated a few other guys...
Baker5112 (1:06:47 AM): yea
LinZAAAY (1:07:07 AM): and now i wish... i could just erase him from my life
LinZAAAY (1:07:14 AM): im just ready to close that chapter of my life
Baker5112 (1:07:29 AM): have you told him this
LinZAAAY (1:07:39 AM): i tell him all the time... and he tells me i dont mean it
Baker5112 (1:08:40 AM): sit him down and have a serious talk with him and tell him you really mean it and if he says you dont just get up and walk out and dont talk to him, and he cant get mad cuz you told him it was his choice not to believe it tho
LinZAAAY (1:08:51 AM): i dont want to see him tho
LinZAAAY (1:09:01 AM): cuz i wont say everything i need to say
LinZAAAY (1:09:04 AM): id rather just not talk to him
LinZAAAY (1:09:22 AM): id rather him just not call me. im not good at not answering after i tell him not to call
LinZAAAY (1:10:20 AM): i just dont see how i can ever move on with stuff and find someone that makes me happy with him around. i mean hes an ex for a reason. something went wrong somewhere
Baker5112 (1:10:33 AM): exactly
LinZAAAY (1:11:00 AM): grrr
Baker5112 (1:11:25 AM): find something that pisses you off about him
Baker5112 (1:11:29 AM): there has to be something
LinZAAAY (1:11:33 AM): theres a list
Baker5112 (1:11:38 AM): exactly
LinZAAAY (1:11:38 AM): and its long
Baker5112 (1:11:44 AM): so just think about the bad things about him
Baker5112 (1:11:55 AM): it wont take long to get over him if u just think of the things you hate
LinZAAAY (1:12:07 AM): i wish hed move away
LinZAAAY (1:12:24 AM): or stop calling. god damn
Baker5112 (1:12:41 AM): just dont answer
LinZAAAY (1:12:48 AM): its hard.
LinZAAAY (1:12:56 AM): cuz he usually calls when im missin him
Baker5112 (1:12:56 AM): yea well it wont be easy
LinZAAAY (1:13:09 AM): just when i think hes not gonna call. he does
Baker5112 (1:13:24 AM): go out and find someone and then if you spend time with them youll get over him seriously
Baker5112 (1:13:35 AM): if you sit at home and think about how to get over him and shit thats not gonna help anything
LinZAAAY (1:13:59 AM): i met a guy a few months ago.. and were startin to hang out and talk more.. but hes outta town this weekend
LinZAAAY (1:14:03 AM): and im sad RIGHT NOW
LinZAAAY (1:14:17 AM): it all started earlier tonight
LinZAAAY (1:14:23 AM): about something TOTALLY different than my ex
Baker5112 (1:14:34 AM): what happened
LinZAAAY (1:15:19 AM): i was driving down brown trail and passed my old house. and i thought about meeting this guy in front of my house... and after we were friends for a while.. he raped me
LinZAAAY (1:15:35 AM): then it made me think of sam and the shitty things hes said to me. and hows he acted.
LinZAAAY (1:15:48 AM): and it just made me think about how i wasted all that time caring about someone that didnt deserve it
Baker5112 (1:16:26 AM): thats horrible
Baker5112 (1:16:27 AM): im sorry
Baker5112 (1:16:37 AM): see guys like that arent worth it youre right
LinZAAAY (1:16:43 AM): it seriously ruined my night
LinZAAAY (1:16:50 AM): sam used to tell me i deserved getting raped
Baker5112 (1:17:01 AM): well hes a dumbass
LinZAAAY (1:17:11 AM): yeah i know.
Baker5112 (1:18:17 AM): i hope you didnt listen to that shit
LinZAAAY (1:18:20 AM): i didnt.
LinZAAAY (1:18:40 AM): i know i didnt deserve it... but it didnt make it any easier on me. because i wonder if my life would have been different
LinZAAAY (1:20:00 AM): it really fucked up my view of guys
Baker5112 (1:20:41 AM): you shouldnt let one stupid ass guy change your view of anything
Baker5112 (1:20:44 AM): especially your life
LinZAAAY (1:21:07 AM): it changed my life tho... i mean how can you expect to be able to trust guys again when all the ones you trustred hurt you
Baker5112 (1:21:17 AM): guys are assholes
Baker5112 (1:21:23 AM): lol seriously
Baker5112 (1:21:32 AM): but some guys are less than others
LinZAAAY (1:23:23 AM): yeah i know... i just havent found any worth a damn