Sometimes... you go back on your word.
LinZAAAY (1:09:05 AM): it sucks.. cuz i swore i would never... i never wanted to hurt sam like that
LinZAAAY (1:09:14 AM): but now... im like what do i care what happens to sam
LinZAAAY (1:09:49 AM): ah well.
LinZAAAY (1:10:06 AM): sams hurt me before too. i just want sam to get outta my life
Its sad that I am to this point. Its frustrating to think that I dont wanna think about loving him or hurting him anymore. It's been damn near a year since we broke up. I know he's doin his thing and still hangs on and Im doing my thing and still hangin on. Im tired of that. If i need to change everything... and I mean everything, then I will. Here i am wishing life would get better and that relationships would get easier... but they dont... the decisions I face everyday are hard. Its like how do you make changes... when its sooo hard to change things... you dont wanna revert and you damn sure dont wanna go back... but youre horrified to go forward. its not easy. thats for sure. but here i am. and Im trying. thats all i know.
LinZAAAY (1:30:15 AM):
EmwunGarand82 (1:30:23 AM): what
LinZAAAY (1:30:27 AM): just thinkin
LinZAAAY (1:30:32 AM): about how things are and were
LinZAAAY (1:30:36 AM): like about everything
LinZAAAY (1:09:14 AM): but now... im like what do i care what happens to sam
LinZAAAY (1:09:49 AM): ah well.
LinZAAAY (1:10:06 AM): sams hurt me before too. i just want sam to get outta my life
Its sad that I am to this point. Its frustrating to think that I dont wanna think about loving him or hurting him anymore. It's been damn near a year since we broke up. I know he's doin his thing and still hangs on and Im doing my thing and still hangin on. Im tired of that. If i need to change everything... and I mean everything, then I will. Here i am wishing life would get better and that relationships would get easier... but they dont... the decisions I face everyday are hard. Its like how do you make changes... when its sooo hard to change things... you dont wanna revert and you damn sure dont wanna go back... but youre horrified to go forward. its not easy. thats for sure. but here i am. and Im trying. thats all i know.
LinZAAAY (1:30:15 AM):
EmwunGarand82 (1:30:23 AM): what
LinZAAAY (1:30:27 AM): just thinkin
LinZAAAY (1:30:32 AM): about how things are and were
LinZAAAY (1:30:36 AM): like about everything