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today i have a lot of anger in me, mostly because i hate sluts who sleep with everyone for no reason other than that they are WICKED insecure. have fun with that.
tonight i have to work 3:30-9. after that i am getting fucked up. god, im so tired. but i can't sleep.. i should buy some caffeine pills or something.. i need to be awake. and my stomach needs to stop acting like this.. i ate food and everything its just fucked up. maybe i should eat something a little healthier. im supposed to be doing my spanish project.. i have barely started it. i hope i will do some of it this weekend but i doubt it. i suck at life.
so yeah, i guess im really hurt by chad, i feel as though i should say it somewhere cause ive pretty much kept it all in. those two days that we hung out i was so happy.. i thought that he was too. he sure seemed it. i wish he would get past his partying phase. or at least just party with me. i hate him for doing this to me, but i don't feel right without him. i just don't understand why he can't be with me. he can't be that attached to all his friends. i don't understand why he doesn't realize that i would do anything for him. i wonder if his friends will always be there for him like i will.
i wish this day would be over. and i wish that dumb slut would die. i have to say something to her. shes annoying the shit out of me. disgusting.
tonight i have to work 3:30-9. after that i am getting fucked up. god, im so tired. but i can't sleep.. i should buy some caffeine pills or something.. i need to be awake. and my stomach needs to stop acting like this.. i ate food and everything its just fucked up. maybe i should eat something a little healthier. im supposed to be doing my spanish project.. i have barely started it. i hope i will do some of it this weekend but i doubt it. i suck at life.
so yeah, i guess im really hurt by chad, i feel as though i should say it somewhere cause ive pretty much kept it all in. those two days that we hung out i was so happy.. i thought that he was too. he sure seemed it. i wish he would get past his partying phase. or at least just party with me. i hate him for doing this to me, but i don't feel right without him. i just don't understand why he can't be with me. he can't be that attached to all his friends. i don't understand why he doesn't realize that i would do anything for him. i wonder if his friends will always be there for him like i will.
i wish this day would be over. and i wish that dumb slut would die. i have to say something to her. shes annoying the shit out of me. disgusting.