i don't need you at all
so me and chad broke up for the third time on tuesday.. for some reason i have a feeling that we won't be getting back together. i miss him and everything but when i sit down and think about it i realize that he doesn't love me anymore.. so there is no reason for me to hold on. it just sucks though.. i was all set to break up with him, and then when i finally got him there in person i just broke down and i couldn't do it.. so now i feel like an idiot. ive only tried to call him once since it happened, and that was today.. but still no answer. i wonder if he wants absolutely nothing to do with me - which would hurt. but i can' t tell if it would hurt worse to see him with other people or if we just kept our distance.
despite the breakup this week has been crazy and drunk. insanely drunk. which is what i needed.
monday- went to a cookout at mike's. ate hotdogs, got drunk. went home. slept. went out again. got drunker.
tuesday- went to boston with kelly and krystal. i had a delightful time. then went to ashley's. ate a cheeseburger(the best ive ever had) then drove around. broke up with chad. had a fire at ashley's and got insanely drunk. thankssssss
wednesday- it took forever... but we went to the beach. ate tons of turkey. got cheesed a couple of times. watched the storm. went home. celebrated 420. then went to mike's and drank more.
thursday-went to my orientation, then to the mall and K-mart, then to kemo's. got drunk again. went up to kelly's with krystal. got more drunk. then back to kemo's. then to ashley's. then we drove around.. with some drama mixed in there somewhere.. but its all good now.
tonight- AMHERST and i think that is all that needs to be said.
goodbye all.
despite the breakup this week has been crazy and drunk. insanely drunk. which is what i needed.
monday- went to a cookout at mike's. ate hotdogs, got drunk. went home. slept. went out again. got drunker.
tuesday- went to boston with kelly and krystal. i had a delightful time. then went to ashley's. ate a cheeseburger(the best ive ever had) then drove around. broke up with chad. had a fire at ashley's and got insanely drunk. thankssssss
wednesday- it took forever... but we went to the beach. ate tons of turkey. got cheesed a couple of times. watched the storm. went home. celebrated 420. then went to mike's and drank more.
thursday-went to my orientation, then to the mall and K-mart, then to kemo's. got drunk again. went up to kelly's with krystal. got more drunk. then back to kemo's. then to ashley's. then we drove around.. with some drama mixed in there somewhere.. but its all good now.
tonight- AMHERST and i think that is all that needs to be said.
goodbye all.