Sep 19, 2003 20:52
this problem i have is so bad, i hate it. and it makes me hate myself, it makes me feel like a piece of a shit. it makes me feel like i have nothin left, it chokes my true reality out of focus, and makes self hatred take over. i see my world blur outta site and suicidal thoughts in to vision, its not the real me, its like another person made of complete and utter demise for everything and everyone(including me) except for sami, its amazing she's the only thing that i cant find a reason to dislike or fear. someone needs to help me its gettin outta hand, im talkin bout cold sweats just sittin here typing away. right now i can seriously hate myself so easily