Welcome to my world.

[ooinamouradaoo]

My reality seems to be constructed of fragmented dreams, consisting of love, of pain, and of the deepest, most authentic depteration I have ever known. These are the emotions on which I thrive, yet I choose to sedate them at the earliest opportunity by whatever means necessary. I have long forgotten the sweet taste of true happiness... all I have is synthesized drug-induced euphoria, which has begun to lose it's effect. My vision is split and distorted from the pills I chose to consume today. I wish to drown in a vast sea of lost souls... for it could maybe allow me to feel alive again, if only for an instant....

This is what I have become...

My mind is nothing but a whirlpool of decaying memories.

I have never felt so alone in my entire life.