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its been awhile. but i have a lot on my chest, mind and heart. i just need somewhere to let it out. and well this is a journal.
in just a few days i'll be seeing my boyfriend after 6 months of being without him. i have been counting down the months, days, hours and minutes for this day to come. i can tell that he has changed so much and it makes it even harder for me to wait. i miss him so much, hes like my other half. i know its hard for people to truly know what kind of guy he is because of his past, but i believe in putting the past behind us, focusing in the now, and waiting for future to unfold.
the plan was that i was gonna go with his parents to pick him up from his school and come back home with him. i have been informing my parents about this trip for the past two months, and neither of them fully told me NO. when i told my dad, he said nothing. and when i told my mom she told me she was worried about me missing school, but i reassured her that i would handle everything and i did, i told all my teachers and im handing everything that i need to in earlier. now they tell me that i can't go because its not good for a girl to go after the guy or something like that. but i just don't see a good enough reason for me not to go. im gonna try to talk to them before i leave, but im still going to go, but at least they know why i want to go and how imperative it is for me to this.
in the end im probably gonna go with or without their permission. im leaving in 7 days and they tell me this now?! ive been waiting for this day for 6 months. im packed, planned, and ready to go. in the end, i rather take the punishment than miss an opportunity.
on another stressful note, my parents are really keen on moving. their planning stuff but their not really telling us anything. im just worried that we do end up moving and i have to leave everything behind. i just don't know what to do really, i wanna move and start something new before i don't get a chance to, but then i also want to stay here and make a life of my own without my family. just live on my own and just live. but i can live over there too right?
school has been hectic, my sister just finished telling me a story about my father and it really hit me. i really should focus on school, but so much is going on in my life and i just can't. i have two major exams coming up and i need to do good on them or else.
ive been working out lately, i just want to look good for chris, for myself, and for the summer of course. i feel really good about myself, more than before, and when i run its like i leave all the problems and the stress behind and it makes me feel good.
all i want is for chris to come home. hopefully it will help me relax and relieve me from all my stress, so that i can focus more on my studies.
My sister helped me out a lot today, she told me to read Matthew 6:34
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough worries of its own, theres is no need to add to the troubles that each day already brings.
in just a few days i'll be seeing my boyfriend after 6 months of being without him. i have been counting down the months, days, hours and minutes for this day to come. i can tell that he has changed so much and it makes it even harder for me to wait. i miss him so much, hes like my other half. i know its hard for people to truly know what kind of guy he is because of his past, but i believe in putting the past behind us, focusing in the now, and waiting for future to unfold.
the plan was that i was gonna go with his parents to pick him up from his school and come back home with him. i have been informing my parents about this trip for the past two months, and neither of them fully told me NO. when i told my dad, he said nothing. and when i told my mom she told me she was worried about me missing school, but i reassured her that i would handle everything and i did, i told all my teachers and im handing everything that i need to in earlier. now they tell me that i can't go because its not good for a girl to go after the guy or something like that. but i just don't see a good enough reason for me not to go. im gonna try to talk to them before i leave, but im still going to go, but at least they know why i want to go and how imperative it is for me to this.
in the end im probably gonna go with or without their permission. im leaving in 7 days and they tell me this now?! ive been waiting for this day for 6 months. im packed, planned, and ready to go. in the end, i rather take the punishment than miss an opportunity.
on another stressful note, my parents are really keen on moving. their planning stuff but their not really telling us anything. im just worried that we do end up moving and i have to leave everything behind. i just don't know what to do really, i wanna move and start something new before i don't get a chance to, but then i also want to stay here and make a life of my own without my family. just live on my own and just live. but i can live over there too right?
school has been hectic, my sister just finished telling me a story about my father and it really hit me. i really should focus on school, but so much is going on in my life and i just can't. i have two major exams coming up and i need to do good on them or else.
ive been working out lately, i just want to look good for chris, for myself, and for the summer of course. i feel really good about myself, more than before, and when i run its like i leave all the problems and the stress behind and it makes me feel good.
all i want is for chris to come home. hopefully it will help me relax and relieve me from all my stress, so that i can focus more on my studies.
My sister helped me out a lot today, she told me to read Matthew 6:34
Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough worries of its own, theres is no need to add to the troubles that each day already brings.