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i wish i came w/ an on/off button. i would be more than happy if i could press it now. just get away. i just want an off button....no option of coming back ever. i'm tired of living like this. he loves me. everyone loves me because no one knows me. i'm not nice. i'm not anything you think i am. i am this. this is what i have become. pathetic. sad. lonely. addict. fiend. nothing i ever wanted to be. nothing i like. nothing i care for. if i only had a gun there would be no tomorrow. (bnl) i remember when that counted. when something meant something to me. when...as he put it...i wanted to wake up in the morning. this is a chore. this has gone beyond boredom and moved...took a straight dive into shitty...unhappy. i'm not depressed. i'm sad. i'm....dead.