Whether you Can Breathe AGain or NOt
Some things have a way of knocking the breath of of you when they come. But the defining factor between teh good and the bad - the beneficial and the maligant - is whehter you can breathe again or not.
Last week went by faster than fuck, it even went by faster than Homecomign Week. All of the seniors last year had a point, I think - it goes by very, very fast. BUt that's the way it's supposed to go. We're supposed to be enjoying this time - preferably without boinkign each otehr's brains out. Or with, I guess it's each person's choice.
I used to think that people everywhere were dying; emotionally as well as physically. I always had such disdain for the blissfully ignorant - but they knew something I didn't, without even knowing they knew it - Don't go by by anybody else's rules or convictions; live life on your own terms because otherwise you're hardly living at all.
This is high school, though, of course - most of us don't even know what our "own terms" are yet. There are a few who don't care, and for now, they're happy - but whent hey crash, at least - at least they'll know why. There are a few who live on borrowed terms - nevr knowing they already have their own, and it tortures them.
Well, I do believe I've learned my lesson. I wasn't living on anybody else's terms - I might never do that - but I was acting as if my beliefs, convictions, and values were universally accepted and acceptable, if only you were an "intellectual" or "one of us." (...one of us, one of us... one of us..." NOw I know that if you're still not liveing on your own terms, I shouldn't force you into mine, and also that you may not have your own or live by your own because you won't - but because you can't.
Do me a favor, whoever and whenever and wherever you are, think about what you did yesterday. Who you saw, what you said, what you did. Did you do - as life and existance demand - waht you really wanted to do? Or did you attent a concert you didn't want to see with someone you didn't want to be with because "it seemed right"? People might tell you that doing what you wand to do is teh easiest, but erally, its' the hardest. It's the hardest to look at yourself wiht your own eyes instead of the world's.
Live life on your own terms. I don't mean live recklessly without rules or values - live with mroe values, even if you obtained them from otgher people - as long as you see them and feel them and need them as your own.
Went to Hooter's last night with my Eamon and John and some of his other friends. It was really fun, we had the most airheaded, top-heavy brunnete as our waitress. Eamon made a joke about only needed to go 2 and a half miles south of teh broder to find people who didn't have food - or somethign - and she jsut gave him a blank look and was like, "What?" Eamon and I were enjoying the calendar - and something drove me to say, "Eamon, you simply don't have taste in women." I thought it was funny at the time, btu of course it isn't true.... WINK...
I miss Lotus. Where IS you, LOTUS? WHERE?
If somebody finds lotus, please call 274-1106. If found dead, please dump her in my backyard.
Lol. You guys know the rule - if you need help with anything, call the Ivy anytime, 24/7.
Last week went by faster than fuck, it even went by faster than Homecomign Week. All of the seniors last year had a point, I think - it goes by very, very fast. BUt that's the way it's supposed to go. We're supposed to be enjoying this time - preferably without boinkign each otehr's brains out. Or with, I guess it's each person's choice.
I used to think that people everywhere were dying; emotionally as well as physically. I always had such disdain for the blissfully ignorant - but they knew something I didn't, without even knowing they knew it - Don't go by by anybody else's rules or convictions; live life on your own terms because otherwise you're hardly living at all.
This is high school, though, of course - most of us don't even know what our "own terms" are yet. There are a few who don't care, and for now, they're happy - but whent hey crash, at least - at least they'll know why. There are a few who live on borrowed terms - nevr knowing they already have their own, and it tortures them.
Well, I do believe I've learned my lesson. I wasn't living on anybody else's terms - I might never do that - but I was acting as if my beliefs, convictions, and values were universally accepted and acceptable, if only you were an "intellectual" or "one of us." (...one of us, one of us... one of us..." NOw I know that if you're still not liveing on your own terms, I shouldn't force you into mine, and also that you may not have your own or live by your own because you won't - but because you can't.
Do me a favor, whoever and whenever and wherever you are, think about what you did yesterday. Who you saw, what you said, what you did. Did you do - as life and existance demand - waht you really wanted to do? Or did you attent a concert you didn't want to see with someone you didn't want to be with because "it seemed right"? People might tell you that doing what you wand to do is teh easiest, but erally, its' the hardest. It's the hardest to look at yourself wiht your own eyes instead of the world's.
Live life on your own terms. I don't mean live recklessly without rules or values - live with mroe values, even if you obtained them from otgher people - as long as you see them and feel them and need them as your own.
Went to Hooter's last night with my Eamon and John and some of his other friends. It was really fun, we had the most airheaded, top-heavy brunnete as our waitress. Eamon made a joke about only needed to go 2 and a half miles south of teh broder to find people who didn't have food - or somethign - and she jsut gave him a blank look and was like, "What?" Eamon and I were enjoying the calendar - and something drove me to say, "Eamon, you simply don't have taste in women." I thought it was funny at the time, btu of course it isn't true.... WINK...
I miss Lotus. Where IS you, LOTUS? WHERE?
If somebody finds lotus, please call 274-1106. If found dead, please dump her in my backyard.
Lol. You guys know the rule - if you need help with anything, call the Ivy anytime, 24/7.