The nurse's Office
Today was rather interesting.
But first I have to say this or I'll forget to.
I've finally found people that I can have lengthy, intelligent conversations with.
With Gage and Taylor, it's more like just hanging around and playing music and having fun.
But with Chelsea, and now Ray, I can actually discuss things and express opinions and make statements without getting shot down.
It kind of worries me because Gage and Taylor are my best friends. That's not going to change, but I just wish that I could discuss things with them, too. And I don't want them to feel like I'm abandoning them for anyone else. That would be horrible.
But anyways, so I decided that I didn't want to go to school today, so I blamed it on cramps, but my mom yelled at me about how because I was missing a day of school that I wouldn't go to college and all the money they saved was going back into their wallets. I was like, shut the fuck up, itch. You're just making yourself sound stupid.
So I made a huge deal out of it, because I've realized that once I kind of start telling a lie, I start believing it. Probably not a good thing. Oh well.
So I stayed in the nurse's office and slept. All day. When it was time for lunch, she woke us up.
This is actually an important part here.
So I woke up and I looked over to one of the other bed-type things and this kid Ray was there. I've seen him around, haven't really talked to him, but I always thought he had really good style and was kind of hot, even though he's in 7th grade. Oh well, what's a year got to do with it?
So anyways, he sits up and looks at me and is all "I have sex hair, don't I?" with his kind of deep voice, and his asian-ness.
And I say "just a bit. It's ok though."
and he laughs and we walk out the door. I go sit with Gage and Taylor and eat lunch and stuff. Then when I'm done eating I go over and chill with Emma and Shannon and, coincidentally, my neighbor, Makenna. Makenna and I have never been REALLY good friends, but she seems alright.
So Makenna's talking to Reid, and Emma and I are having some bizarre conversation that I can't quite recall, and then Ray comes up and I remember that he's pretty good friends with Makenna (god, I'm saying her name a lot. It's kind of bugging me). But she and Reid are having some weird conversation, too, and start laughing, and Ray just kind looks at me like "what the fuck?"
And I'm just "I don't want to know" and we go our separate ways.
The bell rings and I have to go to math because the nurse takes 6th period off, but it's not that bad. For the last period, I go back to the nurse's office and sleep some more until school ends, I go home, break my whole vow not to eat sweet things, play guitar, was angry at my parents, and had a long, deep converstaion with chelsea about greek mythology, porn, lack of strage space, and summer plans. Then they came home, then went to some stupid dinner thing, and I was left to my own devices. I baked a cake.
It's good and all, but bleh, I really don't want anymore sweetness. And it was a BIG cake recipe.
I I ate part of it and got on my computer. I decided, you know what, fuck it, and went on facebook and messaged Ray.
And wow. We kind of hit it off. We talked a lot about religion and politics and music and all sorts of good things like that.
Also, we decided to start an Atheism/Democrat club at school because like, we have a Christian club, so if they don't let us have an atheism club, then that's just discrimination. We're probably going to pull Katie Bradshaw into it. She's a political maniac, much like myself. I respect her, which is actually a lot to say coming from me, considering I don't even respect my own parents. but then again, there's not a lot TO respect about them...
But anyways, it was nice to have someone to talk to about that sort of thing. I actually think I may have call him "adorable/sexy" at one point..... can't really remember, though. That's so unlike me. I haven't really LIKED anyone in a LONG time, and suddenly, this confident, hot, Atheist, anti-conformist, respectful asian boy comes around and BAM. I've got butterflies erupting from the darkest corners of my stomach and tickling my insides. It's not fair. I'm going to be GONE next year. And he's still going to be in middle school. Ugh...
I am going to try, though. This is the first guy I've had a good feeling about for a LONG time. I actually think he might be a decent person who loves music, and even something as simple as that is hard to find nowadays. So we'll see where this goes.
But first I have to say this or I'll forget to.
I've finally found people that I can have lengthy, intelligent conversations with.
With Gage and Taylor, it's more like just hanging around and playing music and having fun.
But with Chelsea, and now Ray, I can actually discuss things and express opinions and make statements without getting shot down.
It kind of worries me because Gage and Taylor are my best friends. That's not going to change, but I just wish that I could discuss things with them, too. And I don't want them to feel like I'm abandoning them for anyone else. That would be horrible.
But anyways, so I decided that I didn't want to go to school today, so I blamed it on cramps, but my mom yelled at me about how because I was missing a day of school that I wouldn't go to college and all the money they saved was going back into their wallets. I was like, shut the fuck up, itch. You're just making yourself sound stupid.
So I made a huge deal out of it, because I've realized that once I kind of start telling a lie, I start believing it. Probably not a good thing. Oh well.
So I stayed in the nurse's office and slept. All day. When it was time for lunch, she woke us up.
This is actually an important part here.
So I woke up and I looked over to one of the other bed-type things and this kid Ray was there. I've seen him around, haven't really talked to him, but I always thought he had really good style and was kind of hot, even though he's in 7th grade. Oh well, what's a year got to do with it?
So anyways, he sits up and looks at me and is all "I have sex hair, don't I?" with his kind of deep voice, and his asian-ness.
And I say "just a bit. It's ok though."
and he laughs and we walk out the door. I go sit with Gage and Taylor and eat lunch and stuff. Then when I'm done eating I go over and chill with Emma and Shannon and, coincidentally, my neighbor, Makenna. Makenna and I have never been REALLY good friends, but she seems alright.
So Makenna's talking to Reid, and Emma and I are having some bizarre conversation that I can't quite recall, and then Ray comes up and I remember that he's pretty good friends with Makenna (god, I'm saying her name a lot. It's kind of bugging me). But she and Reid are having some weird conversation, too, and start laughing, and Ray just kind looks at me like "what the fuck?"
And I'm just "I don't want to know" and we go our separate ways.
The bell rings and I have to go to math because the nurse takes 6th period off, but it's not that bad. For the last period, I go back to the nurse's office and sleep some more until school ends, I go home, break my whole vow not to eat sweet things, play guitar, was angry at my parents, and had a long, deep converstaion with chelsea about greek mythology, porn, lack of strage space, and summer plans. Then they came home, then went to some stupid dinner thing, and I was left to my own devices. I baked a cake.
It's good and all, but bleh, I really don't want anymore sweetness. And it was a BIG cake recipe.
I I ate part of it and got on my computer. I decided, you know what, fuck it, and went on facebook and messaged Ray.
And wow. We kind of hit it off. We talked a lot about religion and politics and music and all sorts of good things like that.
Also, we decided to start an Atheism/Democrat club at school because like, we have a Christian club, so if they don't let us have an atheism club, then that's just discrimination. We're probably going to pull Katie Bradshaw into it. She's a political maniac, much like myself. I respect her, which is actually a lot to say coming from me, considering I don't even respect my own parents. but then again, there's not a lot TO respect about them...
But anyways, it was nice to have someone to talk to about that sort of thing. I actually think I may have call him "adorable/sexy" at one point..... can't really remember, though. That's so unlike me. I haven't really LIKED anyone in a LONG time, and suddenly, this confident, hot, Atheist, anti-conformist, respectful asian boy comes around and BAM. I've got butterflies erupting from the darkest corners of my stomach and tickling my insides. It's not fair. I'm going to be GONE next year. And he's still going to be in middle school. Ugh...
I am going to try, though. This is the first guy I've had a good feeling about for a LONG time. I actually think he might be a decent person who loves music, and even something as simple as that is hard to find nowadays. So we'll see where this goes.