A Good Update as To How I Feel
What a change in style I've seen in myself since I got here. I didnt shower yet today, and I didnt shower at all yesterday. I used to never do that. I'm sick of wearing expensive clothing, but hear me out first before you judge that last statement. It's not that I want to go to the thrift store and buy all of my clothes there. It's just that I'm sick of seeing everyone else wearing what I'm wearing. That just shows that I'm not expressing myself as an individual but just going with the culture. When I go into hollister I have hard time deciding which striped shirt I want probably because they are all the same. And, if you are wearing your hollister striped shirt that night, so are five other of your friends.
So yes, I do want to go back to the thrift shop more often. Not because I want all my clothes to be from there, but because if I see something that I like it won't be expensive and it will be more expressive. I might genuinely want it.
Since we're on the subject, two people with great styles are Pulito and Billy.
Now onto the mushy stuff that has to come out.
I love her and always will and she knows that, and I think she feels the same way, but sacrifices must be made in college. As much as I would like to stay together, and as much as my heart tells me it would be in my/our/her (yes I will even say her) best interest to stay together, my mind tells me that I should experience college for all its worth. I think no matter what the outcome, come vacations it will still be like we are dating. Which makes this whole thing strange, because its not like we are only together at home, because we talk so much here. I'm not going to stop telling her I love her just because she will kiss other boys and I women. It's like we're in an open relationship maybe? I'm a swinger? Anyway you classify it it sounds weird so that's why I prefer not to classify it at all and to just leave it as us, at two different colleges. Always there for each other, and always waiting to see each other.
Instincts are funny. I want to cut the throat of any guy who makes a move on her, and I feel like that guy must be the biggest asshole/tool/douchebag, when realistically, he is probably similar to me because we both have the same taste in girl, and that girl has the same taste in us for her to pay attention to him for a minute. So, in actuallity I should be asking her for the number of any guy she hooks up so with to give him a call and hangout with him, but I feel like bathing in his blood would just be more satisfying.
That was a good update. I got a lot out I had no idea I had in me.
So yes, I do want to go back to the thrift shop more often. Not because I want all my clothes to be from there, but because if I see something that I like it won't be expensive and it will be more expressive. I might genuinely want it.
Since we're on the subject, two people with great styles are Pulito and Billy.
Now onto the mushy stuff that has to come out.
I love her and always will and she knows that, and I think she feels the same way, but sacrifices must be made in college. As much as I would like to stay together, and as much as my heart tells me it would be in my/our/her (yes I will even say her) best interest to stay together, my mind tells me that I should experience college for all its worth. I think no matter what the outcome, come vacations it will still be like we are dating. Which makes this whole thing strange, because its not like we are only together at home, because we talk so much here. I'm not going to stop telling her I love her just because she will kiss other boys and I women. It's like we're in an open relationship maybe? I'm a swinger? Anyway you classify it it sounds weird so that's why I prefer not to classify it at all and to just leave it as us, at two different colleges. Always there for each other, and always waiting to see each other.
Instincts are funny. I want to cut the throat of any guy who makes a move on her, and I feel like that guy must be the biggest asshole/tool/douchebag, when realistically, he is probably similar to me because we both have the same taste in girl, and that girl has the same taste in us for her to pay attention to him for a minute. So, in actuallity I should be asking her for the number of any guy she hooks up so with to give him a call and hangout with him, but I feel like bathing in his blood would just be more satisfying.
That was a good update. I got a lot out I had no idea I had in me.