i'm ready to go

Apr 02, 2007 01:20

I am sitting here it is one in the morning and i am disregarding punctuation just read from the heart and things should punctuate themselves i bet already you can tell my mindset is not like the latter or maybe like i cannot remember exactly how i felt last t8ime i wrote but whatever ha yeah it is like that just close your eyes and it all goes away you can change into anything so change everything if you can and you can so do it what is this all about that maybe ugh it smells like fish i am going  to find a better way to do this perhaps i should do this more perhaps i should have said more perhaps i should have told her that i cared more perhaps i should not have lied and made it seemed that i cared more perhaps i should stop kidding myself perhaps i should do what i want perhaps i should call her perhaps i  am using the word incorrectly perhaps perhaps perhaps if nothing else i should stopping thinking and do more in every connotation of the word it is shocking when you realize that the only thing keeping you form living is yourself and it is frustrating to know that you never made yourself this way it is pathetic when you find blame in others for your own problems it is depressing when you realize that you have no one it is shameful when you are your own best fuck it is sickening to fake smile it is embarrassing to get caught doing it and with every day turn turn turn
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