Something I Miss
Ok, I forgot a topic of the day yesterday, but here it is again. I decided to write about something that I miss.
I miss having a best friend. Don't get me wrong, I do consider Brian my BEST friend. And I do have QUITE a lot of REALLY GOOD friends...CLOSE friends, close to the best friend level. But I am talking about the ONE girlfriend, above ALL ELSE, that you run to, tell every thing to, are inseparable with, etc. I haven't had one of those in a long time.
And honestly, that's probably my fault. I'm too busy...and I think I'm broken in the trust department. Its like I refuse to let someone get to that point. I've experienced too much pain in trusting someone and then losing them. I've had multiple best friends growing up, and stopping those friendships, whether it be my fault or theirs, has been hard. Not to mention, having relationships in general blow up in my face. I've had a few close calls, but I always withdraw after a certain point. Its hard to trust people to that extent.
But to end this on a good note I AM very thankful for the friends that I do have. They are wonderful. They are funny and make me smile.
I miss having a best friend. Don't get me wrong, I do consider Brian my BEST friend. And I do have QUITE a lot of REALLY GOOD friends...CLOSE friends, close to the best friend level. But I am talking about the ONE girlfriend, above ALL ELSE, that you run to, tell every thing to, are inseparable with, etc. I haven't had one of those in a long time.
And honestly, that's probably my fault. I'm too busy...and I think I'm broken in the trust department. Its like I refuse to let someone get to that point. I've experienced too much pain in trusting someone and then losing them. I've had multiple best friends growing up, and stopping those friendships, whether it be my fault or theirs, has been hard. Not to mention, having relationships in general blow up in my face. I've had a few close calls, but I always withdraw after a certain point. Its hard to trust people to that extent.
But to end this on a good note I AM very thankful for the friends that I do have. They are wonderful. They are funny and make me smile.