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So i dont cry often but sittin here writing this i am ballin. I have just confirmed my tickets for Florida and yes I am coming back but just the thought of this whole experience is the craziest feeling in my body that I have ever had. It has hit me hard that I will be alone in a place that I dont know with people that are so different then me. Yes this is a good thing but I have never been more scared in my life. I've realized that my lilkid is going to be here in this house with my parents without her Nani. My Lilo will have to protect herself when Casa Proc is a war site. I just hope she remembers her dumbo ears. Its hit me that I am not going to be able to live without my Sarah Anne. Why, you may ask because she is my heart soul and advice. My fun, my tears, and everything else that I have need in the past 4 years of my life. What am I gonna do without all my other Stuart Peeps? Like megs, mayaTho, Tati, Ang, Dr. Love?!?! ITs gonna be no where near the life i have lived in High school! And then its on to my loves. Yes I hate him but how am i gonna make it know that I am and always will be here for John if he needs me if Im busy in Miami? How am I ever gonna smile without a pinkeye hug from Andre or a stupid comment and who Am i gonna pretend that i dont know how to play bullshit so that they make it strip bullshit and then come out and win the whole game? Im not gonna be able to do this. Sarah and Andre are like my bestestestests and livin life without seein them at least once a week...or even a month is going to be impossible. I swear to god I think I might just die.
i cant even finish this...ill write more later or something.....
i cant even finish this...ill write more later or something.....