random thoughts for the day from Produce Pete at 9:41 am in Atlantic City
so as i sit here i realize that i have been out of school school for about a month now and nothing really interesting has happened yet. I havent been to the beach sinec Senior Skip Day and that was a cloudy day. I havent spent countless hours doing nothing with my bestest, hell I havent even seen her since graduation weekend. I havent taken out my sister for ice cream like i always do EVERY summer. I havent found a summer fling to feast my eyes upon. I need something new. Something exciting.
I need substance!
so i might dye my hair tomorrow. Dont know what color yet. Its "harvest" now with potential highlights. But I want a change. I want something that says BAM! this is the same girl that you saw two years ago. I've changed a lot. I dont really know if anyone can tell though. Its mostly inner. Maybe you can tell. I dont know though. Any thoughts on hair color, let me know....!
Sarah came home yesterday and yet we still havent really talked. She leaves again for Indiana tomorrow and then I leave for Florida shortly after her return. One day I will see her....hmmm maybe. Work is like everyday this week and until I go to Florida and then non-stop when I come back so AHHH! I want the beach and I want it now!
Last night went to Dennys in Atlantic City *(thats where laura lives)* with Jennifer and Laura from work. Got back to Lauras at like 3.I swear that it was like straight from a movie with you punk rockers at one table, your thugs at another, the gay couple at one table, and some drunk lady at another. And then it was us three and well what do u classify the 3 of us besides insane. Stayed up laughing for like hours with Jennifer. Woke up this morning and laughed some more. Jen and me are going to hell lol. We are going to hell for all the times we look at ppl and just ask WHY!?! lol. Jen and me are Tiiiighttt now lol we just laugh most of the time and chillz. We are the FAMILY. Then we went to lunch with the Work crew @ Chillis. It wasnt all that but it was okay. I've actually decided that for the most part i love my ppl at Chick fil a. Jennifer and Me and Chris own that place lol and Laura's cool as hell. Its insane. Im prolly gonna miss it lol but i would never admit that in public.
Its crazy that I havent talked to him in almost a month. and its not like i havent wanted to. This is his choice which is fine. I dont care. ill just rip out my heart and leave it for you to play football with. Whatever. You dont care about me and yet somehow hes STILL controllin my life. Well whatever. I cant control that. Thats not my choice. I think Im just going to pretend like it never happened and move on and stop worrying about what is up between us. It was one of those things that had to happen just to prove to the world that we are JUST friends. cuz we are......best friends. Thats all. Nothing else.............
I want my summer lovin and I want it like now! I wanted it yesterday. haha! I want someone to go see and someone to come see me. Someone to surprise with some ice cream and a kiss and someone to surprise me by bringing me a flower he found in his neighbors yard and a kiss just because. I want something fun and care free. I want someone to make feel special. and vice versa. *sigh* Summer lovin, where are you?
Im started to get scared about School...Florida is a long way from home. And things are going to be different. Im not going to know anyone. I wont have any friends for the first say 7 hours. I wont know a damn soul in my class. I will be a no one in a bunch of people (who 80% are gonna be from Floria) Im so scared.
Please God if you do exist please do something for me. I have been as good as I can be for being who I am and I just need a little help in the next few months....just a little.
also i wanna change my sn so give me help on what i should change it to!
I need substance!
so i might dye my hair tomorrow. Dont know what color yet. Its "harvest" now with potential highlights. But I want a change. I want something that says BAM! this is the same girl that you saw two years ago. I've changed a lot. I dont really know if anyone can tell though. Its mostly inner. Maybe you can tell. I dont know though. Any thoughts on hair color, let me know....!
Sarah came home yesterday and yet we still havent really talked. She leaves again for Indiana tomorrow and then I leave for Florida shortly after her return. One day I will see her....hmmm maybe. Work is like everyday this week and until I go to Florida and then non-stop when I come back so AHHH! I want the beach and I want it now!
Last night went to Dennys in Atlantic City *(thats where laura lives)* with Jennifer and Laura from work. Got back to Lauras at like 3.I swear that it was like straight from a movie with you punk rockers at one table, your thugs at another, the gay couple at one table, and some drunk lady at another. And then it was us three and well what do u classify the 3 of us besides insane. Stayed up laughing for like hours with Jennifer. Woke up this morning and laughed some more. Jen and me are going to hell lol. We are going to hell for all the times we look at ppl and just ask WHY!?! lol. Jen and me are Tiiiighttt now lol we just laugh most of the time and chillz. We are the FAMILY. Then we went to lunch with the Work crew @ Chillis. It wasnt all that but it was okay. I've actually decided that for the most part i love my ppl at Chick fil a. Jennifer and Me and Chris own that place lol and Laura's cool as hell. Its insane. Im prolly gonna miss it lol but i would never admit that in public.
Its crazy that I havent talked to him in almost a month. and its not like i havent wanted to. This is his choice which is fine. I dont care. ill just rip out my heart and leave it for you to play football with. Whatever. You dont care about me and yet somehow hes STILL controllin my life. Well whatever. I cant control that. Thats not my choice. I think Im just going to pretend like it never happened and move on and stop worrying about what is up between us. It was one of those things that had to happen just to prove to the world that we are JUST friends. cuz we are......best friends. Thats all. Nothing else.............
I want my summer lovin and I want it like now! I wanted it yesterday. haha! I want someone to go see and someone to come see me. Someone to surprise with some ice cream and a kiss and someone to surprise me by bringing me a flower he found in his neighbors yard and a kiss just because. I want something fun and care free. I want someone to make feel special. and vice versa. *sigh* Summer lovin, where are you?
Im started to get scared about School...Florida is a long way from home. And things are going to be different. Im not going to know anyone. I wont have any friends for the first say 7 hours. I wont know a damn soul in my class. I will be a no one in a bunch of people (who 80% are gonna be from Floria) Im so scared.
Please God if you do exist please do something for me. I have been as good as I can be for being who I am and I just need a little help in the next few months....just a little.
also i wanna change my sn so give me help on what i should change it to!