Tell me that we belong together. Dress it up, with the trappings of love...
Just got in from Gatlinburg last night and my mom picked me up from Kenny's grandma's this morning around 945ish. Gatlinburg was a nice 'get away'. I think I would have gotten more out of it if there wasn't so many distractions. Or maybe if I had more determination to do God's thing instead of mine. I hate the way people can captivate you into doing their thing, instead of your own thing. My heart wasn't nearly prepared for that trip either...
I love worshipping in song. God uses music to heal my heart more than anything, and this weekend I really needed Him. I needed to feel His prescence and understand in so many things. I longed to hear His voice. The only time I came anywhere close to this is when me and betsy went up to the front and listened to Newsboys ( who totally rocked out!) ((And I really don't care for Newsboys anyway- but God uses anyone)) It was just me and betsy, taking pictures, and worshipping. More so the later.
If it was left up to me.. it would just be the music and me and God. No one, or anything else around. I just want to stand in a corner, alone, and glorify Him. Just us 2. No one else. No people. People who would just rather sit there and count down the hours before we leave. Or look so depressed and grumpy. i hate it, but yet I just choose to sit there and not stand up for my Savior either. So who am I to place judgement on these people? I hate pride
I do love my friends. I love the way we don't even have to really talk, just be. I'm truly blessed
Me and andy had our tradition of once again riding up the mountain and getting our picture taken. We've both grown so much over the years, and I love it! it's so beautiful too. Just riding, and all God's creation around you. Mountains displaying all the ups and downs of life. Kinda of what we both talked about. It was so breathe taking, and yet so relaxing. Reality seemed to stop for just a few minutes.
This trip was hard for me. I realized how much I miss him. And it seems hopeless b/c I don't know what to do.. or how to get rid of this. but as andy said.. " you just cope." And in that you grow. It's just so easier when he isn't around. I just wish I could talk to him, with his intrest there. I feel so young and stupid when i say something around him. Depressing. We are still where we were. Oh well.... I love God and whatever He plans to do.. I'm ready for it... so I ain't worring.
I'm really tired from everything, so i'm gonna take a nap! But I love my life soo much. God has blessed me soo incredibly much. Even though my grandma is severly sick, my dad has hugggeee back problems, and mom is disabled.. God is still good, merciful, and loving. In Him I put my hope!
YOUR AMAZING!
<3
I love worshipping in song. God uses music to heal my heart more than anything, and this weekend I really needed Him. I needed to feel His prescence and understand in so many things. I longed to hear His voice. The only time I came anywhere close to this is when me and betsy went up to the front and listened to Newsboys ( who totally rocked out!) ((And I really don't care for Newsboys anyway- but God uses anyone)) It was just me and betsy, taking pictures, and worshipping. More so the later.
If it was left up to me.. it would just be the music and me and God. No one, or anything else around. I just want to stand in a corner, alone, and glorify Him. Just us 2. No one else. No people. People who would just rather sit there and count down the hours before we leave. Or look so depressed and grumpy. i hate it, but yet I just choose to sit there and not stand up for my Savior either. So who am I to place judgement on these people? I hate pride
I do love my friends. I love the way we don't even have to really talk, just be. I'm truly blessed
Me and andy had our tradition of once again riding up the mountain and getting our picture taken. We've both grown so much over the years, and I love it! it's so beautiful too. Just riding, and all God's creation around you. Mountains displaying all the ups and downs of life. Kinda of what we both talked about. It was so breathe taking, and yet so relaxing. Reality seemed to stop for just a few minutes.
This trip was hard for me. I realized how much I miss him. And it seems hopeless b/c I don't know what to do.. or how to get rid of this. but as andy said.. " you just cope." And in that you grow. It's just so easier when he isn't around. I just wish I could talk to him, with his intrest there. I feel so young and stupid when i say something around him. Depressing. We are still where we were. Oh well.... I love God and whatever He plans to do.. I'm ready for it... so I ain't worring.
I'm really tired from everything, so i'm gonna take a nap! But I love my life soo much. God has blessed me soo incredibly much. Even though my grandma is severly sick, my dad has hugggeee back problems, and mom is disabled.. God is still good, merciful, and loving. In Him I put my hope!
YOUR AMAZING!
<3