There is no where I'd rather not be then where I am. not just physically but mentally too. I try so hard to be the best I can be to act like things dont matter as much as they do too me to let things slide and keep on going and keep on trying and keep on wondering whether or not anything will come out good in the end.. there is only a few more days ( Read more... )

As I carry in the dresser to my new room in my moms house i wonder how it is this has happened to me, how it is that im here again and how i thought that i would never come back. But even though i think all those things, one thing is true. I am here things haven't worked out for Chris and I, I did have to move back to save our relationship but now ( Read more... )

Its really weird to look back and see how much ive grown and to think about all those people that once meant so much to me and now mean nothing or practically nothing... like jimmy what an asshole, anyway this is the first time in about 5 years where ive felt consistantly happy for a block of time. I'd like to say that it's entirely due to my ( Read more... )

I thought id never get this damned thing back oye. oh and THANK YOU AUBREY. christ honestly oh well i suppose it isnt the end of the world I'm still going to tell her the truth about it.aww and the wonderful bliss of the lab im so comfortablely not doing.. but other then that im doing mass swell things are falling into place rather nicely.

I havent written anything in a while but eh yesterday was mass awesome Nick came over and we just hung out and layed on my bed and he brought pie and yeah pretty cool except he had some technical difficulities. And today im trying  to go over to seattle to go shopping and what not but most people dotn wanna and i dont feel like writing this bye bye
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Last night i was up pretty late so i started reading my live journal and was actually bored enough to read it till the very first entry that i wrote about a year ago. I realize that even this diffrence from last summer to now is huge and the main fact of it is im not depressed anymore. Especially when i was going out with peter i seemed to be ( Read more... )

It's really weird how things could just fall into your lap, like casually IMing someone for something to do and after at least 5 hours of talking for three days in a row realize that you have more in common with that one person then you thought you could with anyone? I suppose it is trully neat, but i worry that he may think im not as sincere as I ( Read more... )

Yesterday Josh showed up at school with fudge for me! and of course my celly that he got for me for christmas. I know hes the most awesome person. But This is so none of my business but ive become very concerned regarding peter.. and i hope he doesnt read this ( mainly im writing it in here because i have no other place to write things) I feel like ( Read more... )

well I ended up going to Mikki's on saturday and we went thirft store shopping for a bit which was fun but sadly while we were there i found a couple of shirts of jasmines that her mom had brought in. It really made me realize how much i miss her... so i bought one of them that i know she really likes and if she wants it when she gets back ill give ( Read more... )

Ive come to the conclusion that a cupcake should have frosting completly covering it NOT just the top, which i personally consider to be a trick because you have to always match the ratio of cake to frosting and make sure its even. But the concert was amazing it may sound dumb but just being there with all those people who felt just as strongly as ( Read more... )