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Its been how long???? wow....Maybe not writing has helped build up my stress...Not much has been going on, except that I got a new job as a waitress at the Doral Ale House....If it wasn't for the ppl who worked there, I'd be on a ledge ready to jump, Its a pretty fun job, yet pretty tedious, I fucked up on my first day alone and I ended up having to pay 25 bucks outta my pocket,sorry Edgar I was put under pressure :-( you still did a great job training me lol...but hey its cool, At least I'll never do it again, I'm actually here in school hungry, but broke lol...Today is my day off, so hopefully i'll get to relax a bit with my snugglebunny. Yes I'm still with Orestes, Now that i'm workin' late, and actually doing things in my life, i guess i've learned to appreciate him more, and really make worthwhile the time we do see each other.
I think I'm PMSing, my emotions are starting to go haywire, I hate that shit, the fact that like 2 weeks before I get Aunt Flo I'll cry just about anything....I got some text message last night, which I believe I know who it was telling me some shit about my boyfriend and yadda yadda yadda, Damn its pretty funny how ppl go crazy b/c they're so insecure, I actually get a kick outta it...here's the text word for word "You dirty fucking slut! i love your boyfriend though, hope you die from all the diseases"....-me....OMG...to think that maybe just maybe after ppl almost lose someone or someone tells them things to their faces they learn to grow up a bit, but i guess its the opposite...some ppl just don't grow up, and its pretty sad....At least the other person knew what he was doing...glad to see him with alot of weight off his shoulders :-)...
On another note, a friend of mine died like 2 wks ago, Charlie...RIP...he was 19, died on a motorcycle accident on the way home from work...He was Pauls cousin...i'm sure ya'll remember paul, I went to the funeral with jeanette, she passed out in my arms, it was a really sad place to be. AT least he's in a much better place, resting, not having to deal with the shit that is life....
I've been thinking about someone from my past lately, and its honestly bothering me like crazy, I guess its also the PMS but I do tend to think about him from time to time....It sucks though....sometimes i wish i could go back....but life has already has a path paved out for you, sometimes you find ppl who walk together with for the rest of your life and sometimes you walk with ppl who have another path....But damn....Just to go back for a little while would be really really nice...For some reason I feel as if i've seen him at the ale house like twice, but they're just ppl who look like him...Ugh...I could keep writing and writing, but I just dont' want to....
BTW!! special shot out to SUJEY, and JOEL....I miss you guys and I miss reading your entries....along with everyone elses....but I love you guys and I did get your email, i'm just now working crazy hours so I don't have time for me at all...:-(
-ilene-
I think I'm PMSing, my emotions are starting to go haywire, I hate that shit, the fact that like 2 weeks before I get Aunt Flo I'll cry just about anything....I got some text message last night, which I believe I know who it was telling me some shit about my boyfriend and yadda yadda yadda, Damn its pretty funny how ppl go crazy b/c they're so insecure, I actually get a kick outta it...here's the text word for word "You dirty fucking slut! i love your boyfriend though, hope you die from all the diseases"....-me....OMG...to think that maybe just maybe after ppl almost lose someone or someone tells them things to their faces they learn to grow up a bit, but i guess its the opposite...some ppl just don't grow up, and its pretty sad....At least the other person knew what he was doing...glad to see him with alot of weight off his shoulders :-)...
On another note, a friend of mine died like 2 wks ago, Charlie...RIP...he was 19, died on a motorcycle accident on the way home from work...He was Pauls cousin...i'm sure ya'll remember paul, I went to the funeral with jeanette, she passed out in my arms, it was a really sad place to be. AT least he's in a much better place, resting, not having to deal with the shit that is life....
I've been thinking about someone from my past lately, and its honestly bothering me like crazy, I guess its also the PMS but I do tend to think about him from time to time....It sucks though....sometimes i wish i could go back....but life has already has a path paved out for you, sometimes you find ppl who walk together with for the rest of your life and sometimes you walk with ppl who have another path....But damn....Just to go back for a little while would be really really nice...For some reason I feel as if i've seen him at the ale house like twice, but they're just ppl who look like him...Ugh...I could keep writing and writing, but I just dont' want to....
BTW!! special shot out to SUJEY, and JOEL....I miss you guys and I miss reading your entries....along with everyone elses....but I love you guys and I did get your email, i'm just now working crazy hours so I don't have time for me at all...:-(
-ilene-