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Ugh its been a while, and I usually resort to this when i seriously just need to release things...My eyes were intensely puffy, crying for about 2 hours straight last night, and seriously not even wanting to open my eyes this morning, Life is weird, love is weird, and i'm not too cool with weirdness, i don't like it, i don't deal with it. I want to be alone, like seriously, just don't know how to do that, I love my boyfriend, I really do I just need to learn to love myself first, I've never really had an opportunity to do that...many chances, yet i don't want to hurt anyone, and in the end i keep hurting myself. Bro I have no idea what i'm doing...I know i'm going to school, and i'm proud of myself, I'm trying to get a new job with more hours, i'm starting to run...

Ugh i'm like talking in fragments. I just seriously feel like getting away....running away, and not stopping....

-ilene-