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From: Lady Caska
Subject: Re: hi
Date Sent: 2005-08-29
Message:
I just don't like it when you say you don't care enough, or about anything, you gotta care, be a caring person. You can be. And you DO need, everyones needy, just don't be conceeded thats all. Its just that, some of the things that i've realized, are kind of what my dad did. He didn't want to snuggle with my mom, he rarely said how much he cared about her, and that means saying it more than once or twice a day. You know? I'm not asking for much, at least, I hope I'm not. I just want you to be able to show your love and affection to me on a daily basis. When we first went out, heh. Remember? "How muchh!?" "Rawr, I love you more than anything in the world, more than Chocolate , and i want to have a baby with you... or two, or three, and get married, and be together, and grow old and wrinkle together...I would put you first on my list of things to do, if I had one, you'd be like, my top priority. I don't want to make you cry anymore, I want to make you laugh. And I wanna snuggle more than a couple minutes rawr.. Well except for when its really hot, but I can deal with it as long as I'm with you. Nothing else matters but touching you, flesh to flesh, lips to lips." I'm sorry this is so long... But I still love you, you'll always have a special place in my heart.
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From: laudableKOSS
Subject: hi i miss you so much
Date Sent: 2005-09-13
Message:
theres sumthing i wanted to tell you i never had sum 1 care so much for me and when i started to talk to you i fell in love and i changed i wase so happy you showed me things i never seen bfor you showed me love and i got scared and pushed you awey and i still kick my ass for that i dident care what you looked like it dident mader to me and my frinds think im dumb for missing you but i cant help it when i sent thos messeges about me being with sum 1 elts i lied just to push you away but i lernt my leson and naw i gota pay for it and it herts but theres nothing that i can do i hert you and i cant live with that so im varry sorry for evry thing but i want you to no i havent tuched a drink or weed in a long time and i got my parden o i dident want to tell you i wanted it to be a serpriz but spider and i were talking a long time a go about me moving there and him sponcering me. so naw hes got the papers and hes sending them to me but i want you to no is the only reson i wase doing it wase to be with you i dident want to tell you but when you were bitching and all that about my parden trust me i had it under control ps and i no you got sum 1 i tryd to talk to a girl on xbox but couldent stop thinking about my ferst love and the ferst time we made love i love or loved it and i wouldent change it in the werld i love you and i ment it when i sed i wanted kids and grow old with you i just wish i had a nother chance kk i hope to here frome you koss/dan love you all ways
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From: Lady Caska
Subject: Re: hi i miss you so much
Date Sent: 2005-09-13
Message:
For all the times you lied to me? Just to push me away... Well I'm sorry, But I can't be put in that situation anymore. I don't know if I can even believe you, when you say you got a pardon, you were thinking about moving here? Why, what good am I, huh? Is this some kind of joke your playing on me? Divvying your friends out to find out what I'm doing, who i'm talking too? That seems kind of controling y'know? Or obsessive. I don't know. Give it time koss. Theres a girl out there for you. I do still love you, but we can't be together. You kept lying to me, and said why did i ever fall in love with someone that looks like her? Shes so ugly, a fat fuck... Or something like that. Then you told my friend, that all of those pictures weren't me? and that i'm crazy, and insane. Uh huh. I'm crazy okay? So what. Life goes on, forget about me... I loved being with you. But when things got bad, you pushed me away, and I'm afriad that you'd do it again if it would occur, well, again. I'm sorry you wasted so much money on me, but i'm not worth it, not worth that much. Maybe enough to buy a rose, eh make it a carnation, those are cheaper. Yeah, I do put myself down a lot. But at least I don't care what I look like, well I do to an extent. But. You say you don't care, then you tell everyone else. "What the fuck was I thinking, falling in love with her, shes so ugly and fat."... I'm sorry, but I can't handle that anymore. And I know most of it was my fault, that you went and said those things to me, but not everything in the world goes the way we planned. Like now, when i tried to apply at the arts institute international of minnesota, it would cost me 46,000 thousand dollars to go there for an Associates Degree, a 2-year program. Thats a fuck load, thats like 365 dollars for an hour of credit. Thats not worth being in debt 46 thousand dollars at the end of 2 years. And with that and applying for FAFSA, I can't get any financial aid, because my mom got remarried and for some reason they need to see his income tax statement, and he makes a lot of money. So I have to retort to going to community college which offers the bare minimum for the program I want to do. For Interior Design, then I'd transfer to the University of Minnesota, which at least isn't 365 dollars a credit, its only like 150 a credit.
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From: laudableKOSS
Subject: Re: hi i miss you so much
Date Sent: 2005-09-13
Message:
i wasent spying on y would i i got no rezon to and like i sed all i relly want is you and it took a hit or 2 to the head for me to relize that and you werth evry penny ok i sed sum meen shit and i regret it evry day and all i can think is you all i want is you im not trying to be controling i just miss sleeping in the room together and the sweet smell of your hair and the only way i found out about gaav wase frome samoen sole he told me but what i dont understand is i love you and i would do any thing for you i sware to god i want to be with you and thats y i got the pardon im not lieing to you and he is sponcering me go and ask him dont you remember when we just sat up talking night after night lafing at dumb shit it wase fun we both mad mastaks and i no naw i relly relly fucked up look i ges i wase going that just to scare them away becouse i wanted you it wase dumb im sorry but no 1 i meen no 1 showed me love like you and i did get scared i sware on my dads grave you meen the world to me but i no im dumb but can you relly say you dont miss me miss my smile my eyes me holding you atnight making shour your ok dam i love you do you here me i love you and if you relly love to then tell me but i no and understand if you want me to back off but i want my sweethart bac my true love and yes im goit to the stats . no lie
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Subject: Re: hi
Date Sent: 2005-08-29
Message:
I just don't like it when you say you don't care enough, or about anything, you gotta care, be a caring person. You can be. And you DO need, everyones needy, just don't be conceeded thats all. Its just that, some of the things that i've realized, are kind of what my dad did. He didn't want to snuggle with my mom, he rarely said how much he cared about her, and that means saying it more than once or twice a day. You know? I'm not asking for much, at least, I hope I'm not. I just want you to be able to show your love and affection to me on a daily basis. When we first went out, heh. Remember? "How muchh!?" "Rawr, I love you more than anything in the world, more than Chocolate , and i want to have a baby with you... or two, or three, and get married, and be together, and grow old and wrinkle together...I would put you first on my list of things to do, if I had one, you'd be like, my top priority. I don't want to make you cry anymore, I want to make you laugh. And I wanna snuggle more than a couple minutes rawr.. Well except for when its really hot, but I can deal with it as long as I'm with you. Nothing else matters but touching you, flesh to flesh, lips to lips." I'm sorry this is so long... But I still love you, you'll always have a special place in my heart.
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From: laudableKOSS
Subject: hi i miss you so much
Date Sent: 2005-09-13
Message:
theres sumthing i wanted to tell you i never had sum 1 care so much for me and when i started to talk to you i fell in love and i changed i wase so happy you showed me things i never seen bfor you showed me love and i got scared and pushed you awey and i still kick my ass for that i dident care what you looked like it dident mader to me and my frinds think im dumb for missing you but i cant help it when i sent thos messeges about me being with sum 1 elts i lied just to push you away but i lernt my leson and naw i gota pay for it and it herts but theres nothing that i can do i hert you and i cant live with that so im varry sorry for evry thing but i want you to no i havent tuched a drink or weed in a long time and i got my parden o i dident want to tell you i wanted it to be a serpriz but spider and i were talking a long time a go about me moving there and him sponcering me. so naw hes got the papers and hes sending them to me but i want you to no is the only reson i wase doing it wase to be with you i dident want to tell you but when you were bitching and all that about my parden trust me i had it under control ps and i no you got sum 1 i tryd to talk to a girl on xbox but couldent stop thinking about my ferst love and the ferst time we made love i love or loved it and i wouldent change it in the werld i love you and i ment it when i sed i wanted kids and grow old with you i just wish i had a nother chance kk i hope to here frome you koss/dan love you all ways
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From: Lady Caska
Subject: Re: hi i miss you so much
Date Sent: 2005-09-13
Message:
For all the times you lied to me? Just to push me away... Well I'm sorry, But I can't be put in that situation anymore. I don't know if I can even believe you, when you say you got a pardon, you were thinking about moving here? Why, what good am I, huh? Is this some kind of joke your playing on me? Divvying your friends out to find out what I'm doing, who i'm talking too? That seems kind of controling y'know? Or obsessive. I don't know. Give it time koss. Theres a girl out there for you. I do still love you, but we can't be together. You kept lying to me, and said why did i ever fall in love with someone that looks like her? Shes so ugly, a fat fuck... Or something like that. Then you told my friend, that all of those pictures weren't me? and that i'm crazy, and insane. Uh huh. I'm crazy okay? So what. Life goes on, forget about me... I loved being with you. But when things got bad, you pushed me away, and I'm afriad that you'd do it again if it would occur, well, again. I'm sorry you wasted so much money on me, but i'm not worth it, not worth that much. Maybe enough to buy a rose, eh make it a carnation, those are cheaper. Yeah, I do put myself down a lot. But at least I don't care what I look like, well I do to an extent. But. You say you don't care, then you tell everyone else. "What the fuck was I thinking, falling in love with her, shes so ugly and fat."... I'm sorry, but I can't handle that anymore. And I know most of it was my fault, that you went and said those things to me, but not everything in the world goes the way we planned. Like now, when i tried to apply at the arts institute international of minnesota, it would cost me 46,000 thousand dollars to go there for an Associates Degree, a 2-year program. Thats a fuck load, thats like 365 dollars for an hour of credit. Thats not worth being in debt 46 thousand dollars at the end of 2 years. And with that and applying for FAFSA, I can't get any financial aid, because my mom got remarried and for some reason they need to see his income tax statement, and he makes a lot of money. So I have to retort to going to community college which offers the bare minimum for the program I want to do. For Interior Design, then I'd transfer to the University of Minnesota, which at least isn't 365 dollars a credit, its only like 150 a credit.
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From: laudableKOSS
Subject: Re: hi i miss you so much
Date Sent: 2005-09-13
Message:
i wasent spying on y would i i got no rezon to and like i sed all i relly want is you and it took a hit or 2 to the head for me to relize that and you werth evry penny ok i sed sum meen shit and i regret it evry day and all i can think is you all i want is you im not trying to be controling i just miss sleeping in the room together and the sweet smell of your hair and the only way i found out about gaav wase frome samoen sole he told me but what i dont understand is i love you and i would do any thing for you i sware to god i want to be with you and thats y i got the pardon im not lieing to you and he is sponcering me go and ask him dont you remember when we just sat up talking night after night lafing at dumb shit it wase fun we both mad mastaks and i no naw i relly relly fucked up look i ges i wase going that just to scare them away becouse i wanted you it wase dumb im sorry but no 1 i meen no 1 showed me love like you and i did get scared i sware on my dads grave you meen the world to me but i no im dumb but can you relly say you dont miss me miss my smile my eyes me holding you atnight making shour your ok dam i love you do you here me i love you and if you relly love to then tell me but i no and understand if you want me to back off but i want my sweethart bac my true love and yes im goit to the stats . no lie
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