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[onesexypepito]

so many feelings inside of me right now, i can't even begin anywhere uffa

so i'm moving to italy in two months, i can hardly believe it, i never thought i'd go but it's happening lightning fast, i'm very excited

now its two months of what
waiting
working
reading
writing
longing
restraining
wondering
not knowing
hoping
sighing
crying
praying

regret and realization, double edged, it stabs you twice, once in the front and once in the back
maybe i don't even deserve it
i kinda feel like im hurting more than helping
so i can back out a bit
put the shields back up
it was silly of me to think it'd just work
it's always complicated
question is:
when i'm gone, and really out of your life
how will i look back on the last time i had with you

when i get home i'm going back
and i'm taking someone with me
and it will be the best time of our lives
and whoever she is, i'm a lucky man